I want what she is having...just a quickie

I want what she's having...

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

I have a delightful new friend,

I am most in awe of her.

When we first met I was impressed,

By her bizarre behavior.

That day I had a date with friends,

we met to have some lunch.

Mae had come along with them,

all in all... a pleasant bunch.

When the menus were presented,

we ordered salads, sandwiches, and soups,

except for mae who circumvented,

and said, ice cream. please: 2 scoops.

I was not sure my ears heard right,

and the others were aghast.

along with heated apple pie,

mae added, completely unabashed.

We tried to act quite nonchalant,

as if people did this all the time,

but when our orders were brought out,

I did not enjoy mine.

I could not take my eyes off Mae,

as her pie a-la-mode went down,

the other ladies showed dismay,

they ate their lunches silently, and frowned.

Well, the next time i went out to eat,

I called and invited Mae.

My lunch contained of white tuna meat,

and she ordered a parfait.

I smiled when her dish I viewed,

and she asked if she amused me.

I answered, Yes you do,

but you also confuse me..

How come you order rich deserts,

when I feel i must be sensible?

She laughed and said, with wanton mirth,

I am tasting all that's possible.

I try to eat the food i need,

and do the things i should,

but life's so short, my friend, indeed,

I hate missing out on something good..

This year I realized how old i was,

she grinned, I've not been this old before,

so, before i die, I've got to try,

those things for years i had ignored..

I've not smelled all the flowers yet,

there's too many books i have not read,

there's more fudge sundaes to wolf down,

and kites to be flown overhead..

there are many malls i have not shopped,

I've not laughed at all the jokes,

I've missed a lot of Broadway hits,

and potato chips and cokes..

i want to wade again in the water,

and feel ocean spray on my face,

sit in a country church once more,

and thank god for it's grace..

i want peanut butter every day,

spread on my morning toast.

i want un-limited long-distance calls,

to the folks i love the most..

I've not cried at all the movies yet,

nor walked in the morning rain.

i need to feel the wind in my hair,

i want to fall in love again..

So, if i choose to have desert,

instead of having dinner,

then i should die before nightfall,

I'd say i died a winner...

because i missed out on nothing,

i filled my heart's desire.

i had that final chocolate mousse.

before my life expired.

with that, i called the waitress over,

I've changed my mind, it seems.

i said, i want what she is having,

only add some more whipped-cream...

©unknown author

Back from hols...

I'm back from a lovely relaxing holiday in The Cotswolds, but now the hard work starts..lol. I have a mountain of washing to catch up on, and am now praying that the weather stays reasonable today so that I can get it dry. Although I am not holding my breath as metcheck are forecasting rain..ugh!!

Today is also the day I get Jet and Amy from J, so I am just dithering around today and just getting as much as I can done before they arrive..

Will post more about the holiday, with photos, later on in the week :)

On hiatus for a couple of weeks..

Chez Bear's will be quiet for the next two weeks, yep quieter than normal..lol We are all having a holiday - Bear, myself and D are traveling to the Cotswolds for a few days and the cats are getting a cat sitter while we are away..

I shall hopefully take lots of photos to share with you all when I get back..

Be good....

Afternoon everyone :-)

Hope everyone is doing okay sadly I cannot say the same about myself. For some reason I am refusing to "divorce my duvet", we've had such a "close relationship" for years its rather like a comfy pair of slippers..lol

Trouble is on the surface everyone thinks I am doing okay, D thinks I am plodding along happily doing what I am doing and looking forward to the holiday next week, the neighbours think I am "superwoman" keeping the house clean and tidy and befriending a neigbour in need. And my friends think I am being really great sailing through the end of the therapy and putting the depression behind me.

Sadly I think this isnt the case.. It's an effort to get myself out of bed and dressed at the moment. I have taken to hibernating and only going out with D, to the neighbour over the road and basically only places where I can see my car after I have parked it. I know this is stupid and isn't me, but I am getting complacent with my own company again..

My therapy is due to finish for good next month and I am terrified about this. I am basically being left to my own devices..

I'm back on the pill and it seems to be playing havoc with my hormones. My skin is looking awful, the weight I had shifted is creeping back on with this damn pill..(ok its not a lot for some but to me its a heck of a step backwards - back to 12 1/2 stone instead of 12 stone..:-( )

I told D about the debt that I had run up and he was great about it, BUT he won't pay it off, he has said its my fault and I have to learn by my own consequences. What he has said he will do is that I am showing that I am paying it each month, he will help me out with my spending money for the month as he knows it will leave me short. So I have spoken to the Debt people and have got them to agree to £5.00 a month without it going to court. They emailed me back and said they were happy for that..so that is a weight lifted off me.

I've been dipping in and out of my groups and not really putting anything into them at the moment. I put the odd post up all happy and cheery and then I disappear for a while. I am going through the isolated stage again, even though I have befriended a neighbour opposite, but she is depressed and basically it is an effort to stay in control of my own feelings when I see her. So because of this I cannot see her that often.

I was interested in reading about someone's befriending system with MIND and her meetings with them - I have looked up MIND here and our nearest one is Maidstone and its a bit of a trek to go to, but apart from that I don't know what else to do. I was even thinking of offering to be a "friend" to this person as I can see so much of myself in her but then I thought nope she won't want me around etc..besides she already has her own friends..etc etc..

As you can see I am feeling totally deflated and believe me my duvet is really looking inviting..lol

The house needs tidying up, the carpets need major hoovering and I really can't face it - daft I know especially as I know it wont take me long. I had all these plans that the house would be clean and tidy for the lady that comes and looks after the cats while we are away, and that it would be lovely and clean when we got back.

I am dreading the 24th of this month, as this is the day my ex is coming with my dog Jet and Amy my cat, and this has stirred up a lot of feelings. I know it will be painful but it has to be done basically if I want the dog and cat. I am also having doubts how D will be with Jet - I want him to love it as his own, like he does Bear but he says he cant..that is tearing me up.

If I could wish everything away then I would willingly, or hibernate forever and a day..

Thankyou for letting me ramble on and if you have got this far I think you deserve pats on the back.. :-)

Just a wee post ...plus photos

Haven't been around much and a couple of people have been worrying about me - sorry to be quiet, I just haven't really felt motivated to do anything stitching wise or even anything else come to think of it so the computer really hasn't been switched on that much. I didn't realise I had left it so long between the last blog...oops.. I'm a couple of days behind with sending out my exchange but I have got my rear into gear and it will be sent out first thing tomorrow :) I just feel that I have let my exchange partner down .. I really cannot seem to stick to flipping deadlines for some reason or other.

Anyway a few photos to brighten up my blog...

The first two are of the wasps nest that had taken residence in my redcurrant bush a few weeks ago. It has gone now thankfully..



These are just a few random ones that I have taken recently...enjoy

Piccie of the two mushrooms growing at the bottom of the garden. Click to enlarge :)

Some tomatoes from the garden :)

Ollie in his bush in the garden, the same one that the wasp nest decided to make a home in..

Here are some photo's of the house exchange that I was in on the SBEB board.

This is the piece I stitched for Paula, I finished it as a flat fold, and I was really pleased as it was the first time I had ever done this finish..

The design is from The Brown House Studio

This is the lovely exchange piece I received from Karoline on the SBEB board. It was funny really as we had used the same design fabric to back the flat folds..



Thank you once again for worrying about me.. Barbara I have popped an email over to you..