Just to pass the time.. (graphic intensive)

I got these most gorgeous pics from a yahoo group I belong to and I thought they were so irresistable that I wanted to share.. I have no idea who they are but I want them all.. lol

Sun is shining, birds are singing and I had a horrible meeting..

Sorry couldn't think of anything else to go in the title..

Have just come back with a good half hour's session with my psychiatrist - ugh!! Finally I have a permanent psychiatrist who I will be seeing on a regular basis so can build up my trust issues at long last.

The session was not very good I am afraid, there was quite a lot of talk of hospital admission which I was very anti. You are going to have to drag me back there kicking and screaming if he wants me to go back. We have come to a compromise - he has increased my medication again and has given me three months to see if my therapy comes through in that time. If it doesn't then he is going to have review the situation.

Basically the upshot of the session was that I am very close to where I was 13 years ago when I was admitted to the psychiatric ward for my own safety and health.

The bipolar has also reared it's ugly head again, which we thought we had got under control before, which is why he has doubled the dosage of that medication - he wants to get on top of the extreme low that I have hit.

I also got a good talking too for "putting on my mask" What else am I supposed to do, not everyone wants to see me when I am "down" so I hide it. Although it does give the impression that I am doing really well.

So basically I am not going to do anything today. Can't even ring D as he is off seeing a client in Stevenage for the day and is uncontactable. Typical when I need him he isn't around.. :-(

I shall probably go quiet on here and in my stitching communities while I am just adjusting to the increase in meds as well as just generally getting myself back together again, but normal service will be resumed as soon as possible. Plus think of all that stitching I will be doing.. :-)

Ok now I have rambled on I am going to settle down with a cup of tea and try and watch a film on Channel 5 that has just come on.

"I'm Free"

The most famous saying from an actor, and especially an actor I grew up watching on t.v.

John Inman who was most known for playing Mr Humphries in "Are You Being Served" has sadly passed away today, aged 71.

Source - John Inman

Fancy nails..

On Friday I went out with my friend A to Dartford for the day to have my nails professionally done. Not a major achievement for some people but one for me, especially as I have a fear of going out to crowded places and new areas, and with someone that isn't a close friend or family.

We had a great time and I treated myself to a new handbag as well as having my nails done. I loved them although I find it hard to type and do various things, like stitching, with them but I will get used to them eventually..

*Photo's clickable*

Some good news finally...

DH came home the other day with some fantastic news. He has got promotion at his bank. He has finally got the recognition that he deserves after nearly 30 years at HSBC bank.

D is going to be a Corporate Account Manager and gets all the perks that come with it too, like payrise, a Blackberry (no I don't mean the fruit kind either..), executive business lunches etc.. I won't recognise my DH after a few weeks. Although he was bouncing around like Tigger when he came home with the good news. I was so pleased for him, he has worked so hard for the bank and never got any thanks so to speak for all his work he does. And now it has all paid off..

Maybe now things are starting to look up and this is the start of a new life for both of us.

Car update..

Aaaah the car cost me just under £90.00 to get MOT'd and two new windscreen wipers fitted because she failed the original MOT yesterday. I tell you that's the most expensive windscreen wipers I have ever bought..lol

Still she's now legal for another year and has a years car tax on her too. And bless D he paid for the car tax and the difference between the MOT price and repairs needed. Well basically he didn't really have much choice as I didn't have that much money to pay both..lol Although he had already said he would pay my car tax for me before the MOT, but then the repairs came in and I couldn't afford them so it was left to him. He's a good old soul really, bless him. He does see me well and even if it costs him he wants me to keep my car on the road. Not that I use her much, about once a fortnight to go to Asda now and again..

Also took the dogs for the walk to the garage to pick the car up. Wow that was a long walk, its about a mile and half. So imagine it two bouncy dogs and me in high heels .. it made a picture to see..lol And Jet actually behaved himself around other people, he only did his usual growl greeting - no snarling or anything from him. I do think he might be improving, slowly but surely.