Just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year for 2006.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
A small post before 2005 ends..and 2006 starts :-)
Just want to wish everyone a Happy New Year for 2006.
Friday, December 30, 2005
A friday meme :-)
| Head to toes | ||
| 2. Turn to your right -- what do you see? My cat Ollie asleep on the chair, who is snoring away quite happily. 3. What is the last thing you ate? A mince pie and a chocolate teacake at supper time, oh and with a cup of tea of course. 4. What can you smell right now? Yankee Candle Midsummer Night - I have it in the pot on the table next to me, and even though its not lit I can still smell it. 5. Do you wear hats? Not if I can help it..lol | ||
Meme from Friday Fiver
AAaah cant sleep - 1.45am
Its not fair 
I can't sleep. Its 1.45am and I am wide awake. I knew I shouldnt have stopped taking my sleeping pills again.. 
.
Oh well thank gods there is a stupid Carry On film on t.v. Good old Carry On Camping.
So after my cup of tea I think I shall toddle off to bed and see if I can get some sleep before I have to get up early tomorrow to do the usual bits and bobs. Plus I am supposed to be going out at midday so I dont particularly want to sleep through that..lol.
I can't sleep. Its 1.45am and I am wide awake. I knew I shouldnt have stopped taking my sleeping pills again.. .Oh well thank gods there is a stupid Carry On film on t.v. Good old Carry On Camping.
So after my cup of tea I think I shall toddle off to bed and see if I can get some sleep before I have to get up early tomorrow to do the usual bits and bobs. Plus I am supposed to be going out at midday so I dont particularly want to sleep through that..lol.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
My favourite H.N.T.
Here's my favourite H.N.T.
I really like this one as its my best feature - well apart from my chest of course..lol. Everyone has always said that my legs are pretty good for me, and when they are in a pair of black stockings well they have been known to drive a couple of people wild :-) I might even have that as my H.N.T. next week who knows..
If you want to know what H.N.T. is all about check out Oss's site..
I really like this one as its my best feature - well apart from my chest of course..lol. Everyone has always said that my legs are pretty good for me, and when they are in a pair of black stockings well they have been known to drive a couple of people wild :-) I might even have that as my H.N.T. next week who knows..
If you want to know what H.N.T. is all about check out Oss's site..
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Couple of snow pictures..
These were taken this morning at 10am :-)
And they are forecasting more snow overnight tonight..ugh!!! Oh how I love living in Kent..when we get snow we get it..lol.
Had a good Christmas..
Well its now all over for another year..lol. Yep thats right, we now have 364 days to save up till Christmas 2006. Wow can't believe its all over, you know after all that buildup - all that panicking incase you havent got enough food, the right presents..its all over in the blink of an eye.
It was a relative quiet Christmas. We went to D's mum and dad's for a couple of days. Stressful but nothing we couldnt handle, although me and his dad had words, but they were quickly forgotten. Although I dont think we will ever get on that much me and him, for some reason we rub each other up the wrong way..lol. I'm sure that should be the other way round, shouldn't it be me and D's mum that are like that..lol.
Anyway we had a lovely time, got lots of lovely presents - I got the most wonderful 5 diamond ring. I was overwhelmed, its lovely and totally unexpected. I think all the other presents kind of pale in to significance..lol.
Its not a very clear picture, I'll try and take a better one tomorrow :-) But its the single ring on my index finger :-) *and yes I know I should be growing my nails..lol*
We had a lovely journey home Monday evening.
Something absoltutely magical happened - we saw two deer alongside the road while we were driving along. They were the most graceful creatures we have ever seen. It was the end of a lovely christmas, I couldnt have asked for a better ending. Also just as we got home, along the road we also saw a beautiful fox dash along the road.. What more could you want to see - the most brilliant of all creatures - deers and a fox.
It was a relative quiet Christmas. We went to D's mum and dad's for a couple of days. Stressful but nothing we couldnt handle, although me and his dad had words, but they were quickly forgotten. Although I dont think we will ever get on that much me and him, for some reason we rub each other up the wrong way..lol. I'm sure that should be the other way round, shouldn't it be me and D's mum that are like that..lol.
Anyway we had a lovely time, got lots of lovely presents - I got the most wonderful 5 diamond ring. I was overwhelmed, its lovely and totally unexpected. I think all the other presents kind of pale in to significance..lol.
Its not a very clear picture, I'll try and take a better one tomorrow :-) But its the single ring on my index finger :-) *and yes I know I should be growing my nails..lol*
We had a lovely journey home Monday evening.
Something absoltutely magical happened - we saw two deer alongside the road while we were driving along. They were the most graceful creatures we have ever seen. It was the end of a lovely christmas, I couldnt have asked for a better ending. Also just as we got home, along the road we also saw a beautiful fox dash along the road.. What more could you want to see - the most brilliant of all creatures - deers and a fox.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
To all my blogging friends..
and yes that even includes you..my Barnsley reader - you know who you are cos for some strange reason you will insist on keep coming back to read my blog. I do hope you have found it a fascinating read. I am so sorry it has been boring for you, no juicy titbits for you to store in that recess you call a brain, to drag up at a later date.. So to my Barnsley reader, who is on Blueyonder.. and to all my other blogging friends, this is for you:
Friday, December 23, 2005
I have a confession...
No its nothing horrible..honest.
I am falling in love with someone, and no it isnt my husband..lol. It wasnt something that I was expecting to happen, and I fought it as hard as I could, but I suppose it was going to be inevitable. I have told this person, and the feelings are returned..phew which is a relief. I had hoped that I hadnt put my foot in it big time with this confession, but I couldnt keep it to myself any longer and just had to let it out. But I am so thankful that I did, because at least I know the feelings are mutual.
Now you are probable thinking "who is this person", well its no-one anyone knows. That is part of my personal life that has remained private to me..but I know this person is going to be reading this, simply because I told them too.. So this person I am falling in love with is my very good friend M. We have known each other for nearly 16 years now, and through thick and thin he has always remained in the shadows. Even after cutting all contact with him for nearly 5 years because of various other things, he is still there. Bless him, he is certainly a true rock, and he told me that he would always be there for me. Even he admitted it took him by surprise that he was starting to fall in love with me. I suppose you could say that I never really stopped loving him after all these years, but certain things got in my way.
M you are my friend, my confidente, and you know I am always here for you, as you are for me. Thank you for being a wonderful friend and yes I suppose I could say lover.. We've had some fun through the years, tears have been shed, and we've fought in anger but we still come back to each other. What is the attraction, the pull that we cannot ignore.. who knows. All I know is that I am falling in love all over again. It is a slow and steady progress, not the heady love I had with J, that was an all consuming love I had for J, and you knew that. Bless you, you have always stood in the background, and you have never said anything, you just sat and waited knowing that I would eventually need your shoulders. Maybe it is that, that what makes you so special in my life. Thank you my friend.. :x
I am falling in love with someone, and no it isnt my husband..lol. It wasnt something that I was expecting to happen, and I fought it as hard as I could, but I suppose it was going to be inevitable. I have told this person, and the feelings are returned..phew which is a relief. I had hoped that I hadnt put my foot in it big time with this confession, but I couldnt keep it to myself any longer and just had to let it out. But I am so thankful that I did, because at least I know the feelings are mutual.
Now you are probable thinking "who is this person", well its no-one anyone knows. That is part of my personal life that has remained private to me..but I know this person is going to be reading this, simply because I told them too.. So this person I am falling in love with is my very good friend M. We have known each other for nearly 16 years now, and through thick and thin he has always remained in the shadows. Even after cutting all contact with him for nearly 5 years because of various other things, he is still there. Bless him, he is certainly a true rock, and he told me that he would always be there for me. Even he admitted it took him by surprise that he was starting to fall in love with me. I suppose you could say that I never really stopped loving him after all these years, but certain things got in my way.
M you are my friend, my confidente, and you know I am always here for you, as you are for me. Thank you for being a wonderful friend and yes I suppose I could say lover.. We've had some fun through the years, tears have been shed, and we've fought in anger but we still come back to each other. What is the attraction, the pull that we cannot ignore.. who knows. All I know is that I am falling in love all over again. It is a slow and steady progress, not the heady love I had with J, that was an all consuming love I had for J, and you knew that. Bless you, you have always stood in the background, and you have never said anything, you just sat and waited knowing that I would eventually need your shoulders. Maybe it is that, that what makes you so special in my life. Thank you my friend.. :x
Very remiss of me..
Ooops I havent kept uptodate with my Holidailies at home committment..I have lapsed two days. Oops!! And I dont really have an excuse, well apart from Wednesday I was out most of the day delivering presents to my friend B and her kidlets. And then yesterday I was nursing the beginnings of a migraine, which I was hoping that if I caught it earlier enough it would go away. I think I was delushioned.. the horrible thing keeps rearing its head and telling me its still there..aah!! D thinks it might still be sinus related as I havent completely shifted this damn flu, I am still congested and all phlemyfied..!! So it looks like a wee trip to the drs after the festive period..oh yippee!! Better take out a mortgage for the prescription seeing as I will have my normal meds to get, plus some antibiotics for this sinus thing, oh joy I shall be saying goodbye to nigh on £30.00 eeeek!!!! And so soon after christmas too..lol.
Onto a nicer note, my living room is looking so festive with my overseas cards from my fellow stitchers - thank you so much to those that have sent me some gorgeous cards. I have sent some out too, but knowing the post who knows if they have arrived in time..lol. So guess who is going to be having a field day with the ecards tonight/tomorrow.. :-)
Today I have to pick up my christmas outfit in town, so I am hoping that Sittingbourne is nice and empty - I can only keep my fingers crossed..lol. I have the last minute bits to buy in Asda, but apart from that I am all set for the final day on Sunday. Just have to wrap D's presents up later this afternoon, then I can sit back tonight with a nice glass of malibu and coke and relax.
So onwards and upwards I go....
Onto a nicer note, my living room is looking so festive with my overseas cards from my fellow stitchers - thank you so much to those that have sent me some gorgeous cards. I have sent some out too, but knowing the post who knows if they have arrived in time..lol. So guess who is going to be having a field day with the ecards tonight/tomorrow.. :-)
Today I have to pick up my christmas outfit in town, so I am hoping that Sittingbourne is nice and empty - I can only keep my fingers crossed..lol. I have the last minute bits to buy in Asda, but apart from that I am all set for the final day on Sunday. Just have to wrap D's presents up later this afternoon, then I can sit back tonight with a nice glass of malibu and coke and relax.
So onwards and upwards I go....
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Christmas at Rainbow Bridge..
This is for my beloved Barney and Patch...I will never forget you my darlings...
As the midnight hour approaches on Christmas Eve, a tremendous celebration begins. If you listen closely you will hear the exuberant sound of Bridge kids preparing for the remarkable moment that comes but once a year. Puppies romp through the tall green grass, chasing butterflies and rolling over and over until fits of giggles bring them to a tumbling stop. Kittens, cats, tigers and lions purr in pure delight while the wings of snow white doves gently caress the air.
The babbling brook overflows onto the edge of mossy banks and fins of treasured aquatic life quiver in anticipation of this most joyous event. Nestled in the midst of this happy choir of Bridge kids are the littlest angel tots staring in awe at the majestic Christmas tree adorned with flowing strands of angel hair. Effervescent, twinkling stars seesaw elegantly from the sky and land in glorious harmony upon the stoic limbs of Heaven's most perfect Christmas tree. Swaying to and fro in nearby rocking chairs are grandmothers, grandfathers, parents, aunts, uncles, brothers and sisters. The sound of their whispered lullabies permeate the air as they sing to tiny angel babies resting quietly in their arms.
Like magic, a great stirring is heard. Each Bridge kid stops and listens, knowing the time is near. The roar of purrs drops to barely an audible hum, the brook ripples hypnotically and the flutter of downy feathered wings fall silent. Heaven's spirited toddlers climb expectantly upon the laps of angels while babies coo in tranquil unison. Amidst the warm glow of candle light rising from the earth below, the arms of the Bridge Keeper envelop the heavens. Into the precious hands of each child and in front of each animal a holy gift is placed. With grand exuberance the ribbons are removed and left to fly on a tender breeze.
As the golden lids of these heavenly gifts are raised, an amazing aura fills the sky, reaching down to the very core of the earth. Ascending from each and every box is the greatest gift of all ... unending, unconditional, all-encompassing love. This blessed love gently wraps itself around the cherished souls of heaven, warming their hearts with beacons of radiant light and bringing forth from angels an exquisite chorus. The distance between heaven and earth has vanished. At the moment of midnight, the Bridge Keeper, His children, angels and Bridge kids send a message to their earthly loved ones on the wings of this unbridled love. Listening carefully with an open heart we will hear the familiar voice of our own angel whisper softly into our ear their Christmas message, "Let me share with you this love of mine, always and forever. When you need me, know that I am here. I have not left you for I am in your heart where I belong. Our love is eternal as is the brilliant glow of candlelight that illuminates the path to the heavens and Rainbow Bridge. I wait patiently as do you for our inevitable and glorious reunion. I love you, I love you, I love you." Author unknown
As the midnight hour approaches on Christmas Eve, a tremendous celebration begins. If you listen closely you will hear the exuberant sound of Bridge kids preparing for the remarkable moment that comes but once a year. Puppies romp through the tall green grass, chasing butterflies and rolling over and over until fits of giggles bring them to a tumbling stop. Kittens, cats, tigers and lions purr in pure delight while the wings of snow white doves gently caress the air.
The babbling brook overflows onto the edge of mossy banks and fins of treasured aquatic life quiver in anticipation of this most joyous event. Nestled in the midst of this happy choir of Bridge kids are the littlest angel tots staring in awe at the majestic Christmas tree adorned with flowing strands of angel hair. Effervescent, twinkling stars seesaw elegantly from the sky and land in glorious harmony upon the stoic limbs of Heaven's most perfect Christmas tree. Swaying to and fro in nearby rocking chairs are grandmothers, grandfathers, parents, aunts, uncles, brothers and sisters. The sound of their whispered lullabies permeate the air as they sing to tiny angel babies resting quietly in their arms.
Like magic, a great stirring is heard. Each Bridge kid stops and listens, knowing the time is near. The roar of purrs drops to barely an audible hum, the brook ripples hypnotically and the flutter of downy feathered wings fall silent. Heaven's spirited toddlers climb expectantly upon the laps of angels while babies coo in tranquil unison. Amidst the warm glow of candle light rising from the earth below, the arms of the Bridge Keeper envelop the heavens. Into the precious hands of each child and in front of each animal a holy gift is placed. With grand exuberance the ribbons are removed and left to fly on a tender breeze.
As the golden lids of these heavenly gifts are raised, an amazing aura fills the sky, reaching down to the very core of the earth. Ascending from each and every box is the greatest gift of all ... unending, unconditional, all-encompassing love. This blessed love gently wraps itself around the cherished souls of heaven, warming their hearts with beacons of radiant light and bringing forth from angels an exquisite chorus. The distance between heaven and earth has vanished. At the moment of midnight, the Bridge Keeper, His children, angels and Bridge kids send a message to their earthly loved ones on the wings of this unbridled love. Listening carefully with an open heart we will hear the familiar voice of our own angel whisper softly into our ear their Christmas message, "Let me share with you this love of mine, always and forever. When you need me, know that I am here. I have not left you for I am in your heart where I belong. Our love is eternal as is the brilliant glow of candlelight that illuminates the path to the heavens and Rainbow Bridge. I wait patiently as do you for our inevitable and glorious reunion. I love you, I love you, I love you." Author unknown
Monday, December 19, 2005
Had a disaster - hit the car :-(
Came back from the library earlier and I had a prang in the car. :-( We have a small metal fence going around our front garden, just stopping short of the driveway, well I have driven on and off my drive for years with no problems. And this time guess what?? I scratched the car big time on the metal fence post..:-( I have a lovely 2ft scratch, with a dent, in the side just under the decorative bumper along the side.
To say I was shocked and shaken is an understatement. I was dreading telling D, as it was his car till he gave it to me. Well now it has been truly christened by me..a three year old immaculate car with a terrific scratch down the side..lovely..!!! Oh well at least we know its mine now. lol
I told D about it and all he said was "make sure you cover the scratch up before it gets rusty", oh brilliant that was the last thing I was actually thinking about at the time.. So guess what I did..yep I had some glitzy dark green nail varnish, that is the exact match to the car.. Yep you have guessed it, I covered up the scratch with the nail varnish. It looks good too, you wouldnt know it was nail varnish. D laughed when I told him, but agreed it was a good choice.
Anyway have decided not to drive for a couple of days,as this bloody flu has left me totally drained.
To say I was shocked and shaken is an understatement. I was dreading telling D, as it was his car till he gave it to me. Well now it has been truly christened by me..a three year old immaculate car with a terrific scratch down the side..lovely..!!! Oh well at least we know its mine now. lol
I told D about it and all he said was "make sure you cover the scratch up before it gets rusty", oh brilliant that was the last thing I was actually thinking about at the time.. So guess what I did..yep I had some glitzy dark green nail varnish, that is the exact match to the car.. Yep you have guessed it, I covered up the scratch with the nail varnish. It looks good too, you wouldnt know it was nail varnish. D laughed when I told him, but agreed it was a good choice.
Anyway have decided not to drive for a couple of days,as this bloody flu has left me totally drained.
Zohrah - ooops sorry hon
I have only just found this gorgeous christmas tree that you sent me via email - my flipping Blueyonder acct has just decided to spew out my emails that it has been hold hostage for gods knows how long..
Thank you so much honey..I love it :)
Thank you so much honey..I love it :)
Woohooo contact has been made...
M has finally made contact after disappearing for two weeks. No phone calls, nothing...I really thought the poor lamb had dropped off the planet..lol. Nope stupid bozo had got all the dates wrong when I told them I was unotainable, so to be on the safe side decided not to contact me last week. I must admit I was beginning to wonder if I would hear from them before Christmas, but now I have I am happy. At least I know they are okay.
After the phone call it hit me that I actually missed M. M has become so much part of my life that I think if they werent there it would feel so odd. But I do know that whatever happens my friendship with M will always remain true and solid.
After the phone call it hit me that I actually missed M. M has become so much part of my life that I think if they werent there it would feel so odd. But I do know that whatever happens my friendship with M will always remain true and solid.
Where did the weekend go?
Did I miss it..lol.
You know I cannot even see what I have done over the weekend..lol. I know D went playing with his steam trains on Saturday and I did absolutely nothing apart from watch all the trashy christmas movies on cable all day.. But it was bliss, curled up in the warmth with the animals snoring their heads off nearby and plenty of hot cups of tea. :-) Yep I am easily pleased me..
Think yesterday passed in a bit of a blur, I dont even remember getting up..lol. I know I did, and I know I must have done something , but what I have no idea..lol.
Now I want to know if they can just postpone Christmas for a couple of extra days as I am not sure I fancy going food shopping on Friday. Trouble is I cant really go earlier as I dont get my money till Friday - lovely DSS in their infinite wisdom have decided to pay everyone one day before Christmas eve..yeah great!!
Oh well seeing as its nearly 12.30pm and this lazy lass is still in her pj's, I am going to have a nice shower with my nice smelly bubbly stuff, do the necessary defuzzing where needed and just generally reflect on life while soaking in the water with the nice Cranberry candles burning nearby. MMMMmm heaven!!
You know I cannot even see what I have done over the weekend..lol. I know D went playing with his steam trains on Saturday and I did absolutely nothing apart from watch all the trashy christmas movies on cable all day.. But it was bliss, curled up in the warmth with the animals snoring their heads off nearby and plenty of hot cups of tea. :-) Yep I am easily pleased me..
Think yesterday passed in a bit of a blur, I dont even remember getting up..lol. I know I did, and I know I must have done something , but what I have no idea..lol.
Now I want to know if they can just postpone Christmas for a couple of extra days as I am not sure I fancy going food shopping on Friday. Trouble is I cant really go earlier as I dont get my money till Friday - lovely DSS in their infinite wisdom have decided to pay everyone one day before Christmas eve..yeah great!!
Oh well seeing as its nearly 12.30pm and this lazy lass is still in her pj's, I am going to have a nice shower with my nice smelly bubbly stuff, do the necessary defuzzing where needed and just generally reflect on life while soaking in the water with the nice Cranberry candles burning nearby. MMMMmm heaven!!
Friday, December 16, 2005
Hmm did I miss something.. flu pandemic? WHere!
Am just sitting here, doing nothing, yep I do a lot of that..lol. Anyway I have good old ITV on the t.v. and just now the news comes on. And what do I hear, there is a flu pandemic this winter.! Err where? And what the heck are they talking about?
Now do they mean this avian flu thingy, or a different flu entirely? If they mean avian flu then I thought that had died a death, seeing as we havent heard anymore on the matter. A few months ago it was plastered all over the newspapers and news that we might get avian flu here. I mean they were litereally throwing it down our throats everytime you turned the t.v. or radio on, hey I seriously thought the poor pigeons in my garden were going to be dog food before too long. But no! The pigeons are still there, in fact they have multiplied :-) Nope there definately isnt any avian flu in my back garden. :)
So they must mean real flu, as in sicky flu - that horrible flu I am trying to shift as I type this. Now I want to know where did they suddenly decide there is going to be a flu pandemic, when there has been no mention of it on the news. Yep we have had vomiting stuff on the news, but then thats normal where our news is concerned..lol. But no flu!!
So in their infinite wisdom they announce this, and then they tell us there is likely to be mass panic buying - oh great just a week before Christmas they announce this. Well thats like a red rag to a bull - the little old dears will be getting their zimmerframes all oiled up and their watches synchronised for a mass attack on Asda down the road now. Oh joy!
I bet its only one person thats got the flu..lol.And of course that warrants a pandemic..hardly!!
So I am going to get my boxes all packed up with food just in case there is a shortage of food..lol *basically its called buying your Christmas food*
Now do they mean this avian flu thingy, or a different flu entirely? If they mean avian flu then I thought that had died a death, seeing as we havent heard anymore on the matter. A few months ago it was plastered all over the newspapers and news that we might get avian flu here. I mean they were litereally throwing it down our throats everytime you turned the t.v. or radio on, hey I seriously thought the poor pigeons in my garden were going to be dog food before too long. But no! The pigeons are still there, in fact they have multiplied :-) Nope there definately isnt any avian flu in my back garden. :)
So they must mean real flu, as in sicky flu - that horrible flu I am trying to shift as I type this. Now I want to know where did they suddenly decide there is going to be a flu pandemic, when there has been no mention of it on the news. Yep we have had vomiting stuff on the news, but then thats normal where our news is concerned..lol. But no flu!!
So in their infinite wisdom they announce this, and then they tell us there is likely to be mass panic buying - oh great just a week before Christmas they announce this. Well thats like a red rag to a bull - the little old dears will be getting their zimmerframes all oiled up and their watches synchronised for a mass attack on Asda down the road now. Oh joy!
I bet its only one person thats got the flu..lol.And of course that warrants a pandemic..hardly!!
So I am going to get my boxes all packed up with food just in case there is a shortage of food..lol *basically its called buying your Christmas food*
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
On the long road to home..
Finally the fever has broke :-) Yesterday I went to bed, dont ask me what time as I have lost all concept of time over the past few days..lol. Anyway after being up for a while during the day yesterday, I went back to bed and was watching t.v. in bed inbetween drifting in and out of sleep. At one point I really felt I was dying, I felt that bad..*yeah I know slight exaggeration but believe me it felt like that* I felt so rough that I went and had a shower, as I was totally drenched in sweat..I tell you I have never ever had a fever like that before.
The annoying thing of being like this, is that I have not got any sympathy from D. That has really pissed me off - I even said to him last night that I wished he would put his arms around me and cuddle me. His comment was "you are too clammy". Well sorry but I have a fever..doh!! The sad thing is that I know I would have got plenty of "tea and sympathy" from J..in fact I often did when I wasnt well while I was at his place in previous years, and vice versa with me to him. I did have a little chuckle to myself last night before I went to bed though.. I asked D if he would put some vicks (menthol stuff) on my chest,and I made a comment like don't get any ideas..lol. Jeeze you would have thought I would have suggested something really obsene the way D recoiled from me when I said that, but I must admit I did think back to the times when J was in my life and we would do that and yes he did get ideas..lol. His excuse was its a good way of sweating out a cold or fever..lol. How different D and J are :-( Anyway thats enough of that..
I have to go to the post office today and post some bits and bobs, and then drive to Asda to pick up some other things so am hoping that I dont push it too much. I really do want to decorate the christmas tree today, but I think that will be more like tomorrow that I do that. At the moment I have a lovely green bare real christmas tree sitting in my living room..very chic!!!
And I really must get round to emailing people I owe emails to, I have been very lax in that, but hopefully they will understand that being ill that was the last thing on my mind. Although I am trying to keep uptodate by reading their blogs, although for some strange reason the words just dont make sense to me.. I think I will end up reading these blogs again..
Anyway thats enough waffle from me, and I will head off to the bath so that I can go to the post office and Asda and then settle down for the rest of the afternoon indoors.
The annoying thing of being like this, is that I have not got any sympathy from D. That has really pissed me off - I even said to him last night that I wished he would put his arms around me and cuddle me. His comment was "you are too clammy". Well sorry but I have a fever..doh!! The sad thing is that I know I would have got plenty of "tea and sympathy" from J..in fact I often did when I wasnt well while I was at his place in previous years, and vice versa with me to him. I did have a little chuckle to myself last night before I went to bed though.. I asked D if he would put some vicks (menthol stuff) on my chest,and I made a comment like don't get any ideas..lol. Jeeze you would have thought I would have suggested something really obsene the way D recoiled from me when I said that, but I must admit I did think back to the times when J was in my life and we would do that and yes he did get ideas..lol. His excuse was its a good way of sweating out a cold or fever..lol. How different D and J are :-( Anyway thats enough of that..
I have to go to the post office today and post some bits and bobs, and then drive to Asda to pick up some other things so am hoping that I dont push it too much. I really do want to decorate the christmas tree today, but I think that will be more like tomorrow that I do that. At the moment I have a lovely green bare real christmas tree sitting in my living room..very chic!!!
And I really must get round to emailing people I owe emails to, I have been very lax in that, but hopefully they will understand that being ill that was the last thing on my mind. Although I am trying to keep uptodate by reading their blogs, although for some strange reason the words just dont make sense to me.. I think I will end up reading these blogs again..
Anyway thats enough waffle from me, and I will head off to the bath so that I can go to the post office and Asda and then settle down for the rest of the afternoon indoors.
Monday, December 12, 2005
Sick..
I dont feel well :-(
The last time I felt like this was 20 years ago when I was 17 and living with my foster parents. I came home from college with flu, and just collapsed indoors in a heap. Spent best part of a week crying and sweating.
I feel exactly like that now. I think that I am delirious too, although I am very compess mentus writing this - think its one of my lucid moments..lol. Yesterday apparently I made absolutely no sense to D sometimes.. I'm afraid to cough too much as I end up retching, and if its not retching its bloody weeing..aarrrhh!!
I also look like a little chipmunk with a lovely swollen neck/glands...oh how pretty I look..lol
I've also been reading my favourite stitching board and somehow the words dont make any sense to me at all..ugh!!!
Going to have a hot bath with some menthol in, to see if I can feel more human - if not human then at least sweat some of this out.
The last time I felt like this was 20 years ago when I was 17 and living with my foster parents. I came home from college with flu, and just collapsed indoors in a heap. Spent best part of a week crying and sweating.
I feel exactly like that now. I think that I am delirious too, although I am very compess mentus writing this - think its one of my lucid moments..lol. Yesterday apparently I made absolutely no sense to D sometimes.. I'm afraid to cough too much as I end up retching, and if its not retching its bloody weeing..aarrrhh!!
I also look like a little chipmunk with a lovely swollen neck/glands...oh how pretty I look..lol
I've also been reading my favourite stitching board and somehow the words dont make any sense to me at all..ugh!!!
Going to have a hot bath with some menthol in, to see if I can feel more human - if not human then at least sweat some of this out.
Still feeling pretty shite - plus a HD
Its almost 8am, and I have been up since 4am trying to breathe and clear all the nasty icky stuff on my chest, which doesnt want to vacate its nice warm home. Still if I was in a warm cosy place I dont think I would want to vacate it either..lol.
So have been taking cough/congestion medicine on the 4 hourly, and my flu tablets to give me some energy - not sure thats working either. I still feel crap!! Oh well never mind..at least it will be gone by Christmas thats the main thing..
On a lighter note, I managed to finish my Ornie for an exchange on another board (AION) which I am pleased about, and it should be winging its way to my participant as I type :-)
Its from JCS Ornament 2000 issue, and is by Birds of a Feather - Christmas Heart. I did do a couple of changes with colours :-)
So have been taking cough/congestion medicine on the 4 hourly, and my flu tablets to give me some energy - not sure thats working either. I still feel crap!! Oh well never mind..at least it will be gone by Christmas thats the main thing..
On a lighter note, I managed to finish my Ornie for an exchange on another board (AION) which I am pleased about, and it should be winging its way to my participant as I type :-)
Its from JCS Ornament 2000 issue, and is by Birds of a Feather - Christmas Heart. I did do a couple of changes with colours :-)
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Finally my H.N.T.
Here it is..lol Only 3 days late..lol.
And for a laugh - here's Ollie's,*the cat* H.N.T.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Just had to put this before I go..a letter box anatomy..
Thank you to Fushia Faery for this interesting little titbit about the good old british red letter box..
Anatomy of a Letter Box
I had no idea that letterboxes (or mailboxes!) were so intricately designed here. I just thought they were red pillar boxes for sticking letters in. If you are interested in the mysteries of the royal mail, read on...
"If you have looked at the other pages you will have gathered that not all letter boxes are the same. On this page is a diagram showing what the different parts of a letter box are called with a brief description of how they might vary. This is followed by some examples of Royal Ciphers and then Standard letter box dimensions.
CAP
The top of a letter box may be referred to as the roof. The cap on a pillar box helps to keep rain out of the aperture.
INDICATOR TABLET
Indicates the 'Next Collection', usually with a number.
APERTURE
Sometimes referred to as the mouth. The height and width can vary. On modern post boxes a hood over the aperture helps prevent rain from entering. On some early Victorian boxes the aperture was placed vertically rather than horizontally.
NOTICE PLATE
The notice plate gives details of collection times. It may be an enamelled plate, some form of paper or cardboard notice, or made from plastic.
CROWN, ROYAL CIPHER & POST OFFICE LEGEND
The style and relative positions of these three items can vary greatly. For example on some GR boxes the crown is placed higher in comparison to the cipher than on others. See below for some examples of Royal Ciphers. On some letter boxes the words POST OFFICE appear either side of the aperture.
BASE
On pillar boxes the base is usually painted black. The name of the manufacturer can often be found either at the front or the rear of the base.
Royal Ciphers
Victoria-1901
Edward VII1901-1910
George V1910-1936
Edward VIII1936
George VI1936-1952
Elizabeth II1952"
http://www.wicks.org/pulp/stats.html
I gave up with the rest of the house..lol
Well had my sleep, and woke up feeling even more crap than I did earlier :-( Had a frantic hunt round for some tablets, didnt find some but did manage to find half of boots, as D said..lol. Yep definately got enough "happy" pills to last me over the Christmas period and beyond..phew thats a relief!!! Found some Sudafed, which I am taking to ease the congestion in my head and nose - am hoping that I will start to feel better tomorrow. If not, sod it - I am going to put on some crappy Christmas music and decorate the tree and living room regardless of how I am feeling. D can cook the tea, and if he doesnt like the fact I am doing nothing else tomorrow then he can lump it.. He knows if I dont rest while I am ill, I end up even iller is that a word!!, so what would normally take a couple of days or so to shift ends up being more like two weeks or more..aaaaaaah!!!
Ollie decided he wanted to play with one of my pink feather baubles earlier, so I was picking up blooming feathers from the living room floor earlier..darn cat!! Gods only knows what he is going to be like when the tree is actually decorated..had forgotten what it was like having a young and lively cat around the house at Christmas time..lol. Should be fun...!
Ollie decided he wanted to play with one of my pink feather baubles earlier, so I was picking up blooming feathers from the living room floor earlier..darn cat!! Gods only knows what he is going to be like when the tree is actually decorated..had forgotten what it was like having a young and lively cat around the house at Christmas time..lol. Should be fun...!
It's my blog and I'll whinge if I want to...
Well as the title says it all really..there isnt a lot else to put..lol.
Feeling like absolute shit, I have some kind of flu, I know its not a cold as I am not sneezing or do I have a bunged up nose. But I do have achey limbs, heck even my finger joints ache..and my throat is killing me and I basically feel crap.!!
You know if this is flu with the flu jab, thank gods I had it is all I can say - what on earth would I feel like if I hadnt had the jab..
But.. I havent had flu for well over 15 years now, and what happens - I have a flu jab for the first time ever and yep - I get blooming flu..ugh!! You cant win can you..lol. Wonder if I can sue my nice Dr..lol.
Still havent done my H.N.T. - its sitting on the camera ready for me to download, so if I am feeling better later I might sort it out tonight, if not then tomorrow will pop it on here. With hopefully a picture of my christmas tree and lights :)
Yep we are semi half way there - the tree has been brought indoors to "drop" and the outdoor lights are up, just got to decorate the tree and the indoors. :-) But that is my job for tomorrow.
So because I am feeling so crappy I am off to catch an hour or so snoozing till teatime :-(
Feeling like absolute shit, I have some kind of flu, I know its not a cold as I am not sneezing or do I have a bunged up nose. But I do have achey limbs, heck even my finger joints ache..and my throat is killing me and I basically feel crap.!!
You know if this is flu with the flu jab, thank gods I had it is all I can say - what on earth would I feel like if I hadnt had the jab..
But.. I havent had flu for well over 15 years now, and what happens - I have a flu jab for the first time ever and yep - I get blooming flu..ugh!! You cant win can you..lol. Wonder if I can sue my nice Dr..lol.
Still havent done my H.N.T. - its sitting on the camera ready for me to download, so if I am feeling better later I might sort it out tonight, if not then tomorrow will pop it on here. With hopefully a picture of my christmas tree and lights :)
Yep we are semi half way there - the tree has been brought indoors to "drop" and the outdoor lights are up, just got to decorate the tree and the indoors. :-) But that is my job for tomorrow.
So because I am feeling so crappy I am off to catch an hour or so snoozing till teatime :-(
Thursday, December 08, 2005
H.N.T. will be late..
I am going to do my H.N.T. tomorrow, completely forgot about it today and then when I did think about it I was kind of too busy to do anything..so I am going to be doing mine a day late..still its better than nothing at all..
Now to figure out what it will be..lol.
Now to figure out what it will be..lol.
A little christmas tree..
Just found this..and thought it was really sweet. Apparently it grows into a full grown christmas tree with presents :) So here is mine..lets see what it grows like :-)
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Eeeks I have now committed myself to post once a day..
I have just joined "Holidailies at Home" :-) Didnt join the portal version, as I couldnt commit to actually posting on the website as well as my blog, so I joined the "at home" version. And I blame Renee for this, cos if I hadnt seen it on her blog I wouldn't have been brave enough to register..lol. So Renee its your fault....hehehee
Monday, December 05, 2005
Wow - finally Britain has gone into the 21st Century.
Today is the day..
If you are a gay couple you can finally get married as of today. The new legislation came into force today :-) And the first official "wedding" will be on 21 December of this year.
Finally a couple of the same sex actually get the same rights as a married couple i.e. next of kin, marital effects and financial effects if a partner dies.
Even the Times newspaper has a section in their Births, Deaths and Marriages page for Civil Partnerships.
About time I say..
Here is the full story.. Gay couples marriage legislation
If you are a gay couple you can finally get married as of today. The new legislation came into force today :-) And the first official "wedding" will be on 21 December of this year.
Finally a couple of the same sex actually get the same rights as a married couple i.e. next of kin, marital effects and financial effects if a partner dies.
Even the Times newspaper has a section in their Births, Deaths and Marriages page for Civil Partnerships.
About time I say..
Here is the full story.. Gay couples marriage legislation
Where does the time go??
Oh my gods, I cant believe its been over a week since I last updated. Yikes!! I had so much I wanted to blog about too during the week..hopefully I can remember a couple of things and get round to blogging about them later today..lol.
I have been keeping uptodate with my fellow bloggers, so I know whats been happening or not..lol. Although I have been very remiss and not sent an email to dh recently...oops sorry dh, I got lost in a time vortex..lol. Well thats my excuse anyway and I am sticking to it..lol.
This week is going to be very strained as I have D off all week to do our christmas shopping..ugh!! Not looking forward to it I will tell you, we always end up bickering at the end of the day as I want to go home and he wants to carry on..lol. Or is it the other way round..hehhe. Also my computer time will be limited I expect as he gets a bit narky if I am on there too much while he is off on his holiday..oh well you cant win them all I suppose..lol.
I've also got to keep busy as well, so the good thing is the housework and washing/ironing will get done this week so the house will sparkle by the time he goes back to work..lol.
But I do get a week off the cooking - although even that is fraught with problems in the end..lol. I still have to tell him what we are having for the days dinner..lol. MEN!!
Bear will be happy though as he gets a walk in the mornings as well as at night while D is off..:-)
Oh well back to the grindstone I suppose..lol.
I have been keeping uptodate with my fellow bloggers, so I know whats been happening or not..lol. Although I have been very remiss and not sent an email to dh recently...oops sorry dh, I got lost in a time vortex..lol. Well thats my excuse anyway and I am sticking to it..lol.
This week is going to be very strained as I have D off all week to do our christmas shopping..ugh!! Not looking forward to it I will tell you, we always end up bickering at the end of the day as I want to go home and he wants to carry on..lol. Or is it the other way round..hehhe. Also my computer time will be limited I expect as he gets a bit narky if I am on there too much while he is off on his holiday..oh well you cant win them all I suppose..lol.
I've also got to keep busy as well, so the good thing is the housework and washing/ironing will get done this week so the house will sparkle by the time he goes back to work..lol.
But I do get a week off the cooking - although even that is fraught with problems in the end..lol. I still have to tell him what we are having for the days dinner..lol. MEN!!
Bear will be happy though as he gets a walk in the mornings as well as at night while D is off..:-)
Oh well back to the grindstone I suppose..lol.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
I hate computers!!!
Well after my idea of sorting out the network yesterday, while D was at the railway.. guess what? I didnt do it..lol. Afraid I got kind of tied up watching a couple of films on t.v. and was comfy all curled up with Ollie on the sofa. Heck it was almost freezing outside so I had an excuse..I didnt want to move..lol
Anyway I thought I would do it today - stupid idea!! Bloody equipment that I brought for my lappy and D's computer are wrong.. well D's equipment is okay but the lappy one is definately not the right one..grrr!!! So it was a mad dash to PC World for me this afternoon, with 2hours to spare before they shut at 4pm. Still no probs there, and they even gave me change for the exchange..lol.
Then popped into Pets@Home to get Ollie's name tag for his collar engraved - he's got a lovely purple heart with silver engraving, to match his purple velvetty collar. Sweet!!!
I also nipped into the Asda opposite PCWorld, and got some christmas bits and pieces, some pickles, onions, branston, picallili, and gherkins, and two 1kg tins of Celebrations chocolates.
Anyway got home and started to sort out the computers. Got D's sorted out fine, he has the internet no problem, just I managed to complete f*** the configuration settings up on the router..so it doesnt read my adapter for the lappy. AAAAAH!!! So I am back to the cable trailing downstairs and across the back of the sofa again, and the modem plugged direct into my lappy. Thank gods the lappy is broadband enabled thats all I can say.
So its going to be a phone call to Belkin, and asking them very meekly for their help to sort out the router.
So my Saturday and Sunday were very uneventful..lol. I got nothing done that I wanted done, so shall be sorting all that out in the week. Got to go to the hospital in the week too, for more blooming blood tests..ack!!! MORE!!! I will be looking like a bloody pin cushion by the time they have finished. They better sort my medication dosage out correctly soon..I dont like these needles..no more I say.!!!
Anyway thats my lot, no stitching done I am afraid, so thats something I have to rectify in the week too I suppose.
Off I toddle to bed I think. xx
Anyway I thought I would do it today - stupid idea!! Bloody equipment that I brought for my lappy and D's computer are wrong.. well D's equipment is okay but the lappy one is definately not the right one..grrr!!! So it was a mad dash to PC World for me this afternoon, with 2hours to spare before they shut at 4pm. Still no probs there, and they even gave me change for the exchange..lol.
Then popped into Pets@Home to get Ollie's name tag for his collar engraved - he's got a lovely purple heart with silver engraving, to match his purple velvetty collar. Sweet!!!
I also nipped into the Asda opposite PCWorld, and got some christmas bits and pieces, some pickles, onions, branston, picallili, and gherkins, and two 1kg tins of Celebrations chocolates.
Anyway got home and started to sort out the computers. Got D's sorted out fine, he has the internet no problem, just I managed to complete f*** the configuration settings up on the router..so it doesnt read my adapter for the lappy. AAAAAH!!! So I am back to the cable trailing downstairs and across the back of the sofa again, and the modem plugged direct into my lappy. Thank gods the lappy is broadband enabled thats all I can say.
So its going to be a phone call to Belkin, and asking them very meekly for their help to sort out the router.
So my Saturday and Sunday were very uneventful..lol. I got nothing done that I wanted done, so shall be sorting all that out in the week. Got to go to the hospital in the week too, for more blooming blood tests..ack!!! MORE!!! I will be looking like a bloody pin cushion by the time they have finished. They better sort my medication dosage out correctly soon..I dont like these needles..no more I say.!!!
Anyway thats my lot, no stitching done I am afraid, so thats something I have to rectify in the week too I suppose.
Off I toddle to bed I think. xx
Saturday, November 26, 2005
Quick post for dh
Meant to let you know what a "natter" was, didnt mean to confuse you with stupid british slang..lol. Anyway a natter is basically a chat. So I suppose you could say that I went for a cuppa (cup of tea/coffee) and a chat (natter) with my friend the other week.
There, hope that makes sense..was going to send an email but couldnt open my email account, stupid thing went and had a hissy fit (went wrong!) on me.
There, hope that makes sense..was going to send an email but couldnt open my email account, stupid thing went and had a hissy fit (went wrong!) on me.
All alone and feeling sorry for myself..
Actually I'm not all alone really, I have the furbabies here with me..and one of them (Smudge) is curled up with me as I write this.. I think it is something to do with me still having my dressing gown on..lol
D has gone down the railway to play with the steam trains all day, and I am just sitting here trying to get myself going. It didnt help I didnt even hear him go shopping early this morning, and I was just waking up as he was getting ready to go out to the railway at 10ish..ooops!! Bad natty :-(
My sinus headache has finally gone, after two weeks - but the sinuses havent sorted themselves out yet. Now the pain is in my left hand side of my face, and my jaw is playing up, as well as the pain across the bridge of my nose..aaaaaah!! I think its time to get some professional advice..lol.
Have to sort out the networking while D is out today, he wants to use his computer tomorrow and wont appreciate it if I havent got his comp and my lappy hooked up, seeing as I did drag him out last Sunday before going to the inlaws, to buy the networking bits we needed. And ever since it has been sitting upstairs in the boxes, and I have the main cable lead and modem down here with me in the living room, with cable sort of trailing around the house. Nope wont be too happy with that..lol
Well I suppose I had better get a shift on, I only really have till 4ish till D comes back home and peace is shattered..lol
D has gone down the railway to play with the steam trains all day, and I am just sitting here trying to get myself going. It didnt help I didnt even hear him go shopping early this morning, and I was just waking up as he was getting ready to go out to the railway at 10ish..ooops!! Bad natty :-(
My sinus headache has finally gone, after two weeks - but the sinuses havent sorted themselves out yet. Now the pain is in my left hand side of my face, and my jaw is playing up, as well as the pain across the bridge of my nose..aaaaaah!! I think its time to get some professional advice..lol.
Have to sort out the networking while D is out today, he wants to use his computer tomorrow and wont appreciate it if I havent got his comp and my lappy hooked up, seeing as I did drag him out last Sunday before going to the inlaws, to buy the networking bits we needed. And ever since it has been sitting upstairs in the boxes, and I have the main cable lead and modem down here with me in the living room, with cable sort of trailing around the house. Nope wont be too happy with that..lol
Well I suppose I had better get a shift on, I only really have till 4ish till D comes back home and peace is shattered..lol
Thursday, November 24, 2005
A little HNT from me..
Here's my contribution, not my best shot I am afraid..
Yes its my..please see edited bit below..lol. I had to think then..
To join in... go to H.N.T.
*edited to add - doh I am dope, its not my shoulder..lol. Its the side of my body.. now why did I think it was my shoulder..stupid bint that I am..lol. Sorry to mislead you all H.N.T.er's*
Someone shoot the mental health team..
Please!!!!!!
Had my lovely therapy session at 2pm this afternoon, and it was hell. I wish I could have stayed at home, and buried myself under my duvet. I was in tears literally from the time I sat down to the time I left 50 mins later.. and I feel like absolute shite now at 4.45pm.
We dug up a lot of past hurts mainly to do with mum and J. More J though as he has been on my mind a heck of a lot lately. I just cant seem to get him out of my head at the moment..grrr. So as you can imagine it was very painful. Still at least I have 2 weeks grace till I see W again for another gruelling session. But bless her, she hasnt given me any goals this time, and has said if I want to wallow in self pity at the moment then I can, cos she can see how really down I am feeling.
I was going to do a post about my feelings and how I still am missing someone so deeply, who broke my heart literally in two, but after therapy I really am not up to it now. Maybe later on..
Roll on January when normal service will be resumed!!
Had my lovely therapy session at 2pm this afternoon, and it was hell. I wish I could have stayed at home, and buried myself under my duvet. I was in tears literally from the time I sat down to the time I left 50 mins later.. and I feel like absolute shite now at 4.45pm.
We dug up a lot of past hurts mainly to do with mum and J. More J though as he has been on my mind a heck of a lot lately. I just cant seem to get him out of my head at the moment..grrr. So as you can imagine it was very painful. Still at least I have 2 weeks grace till I see W again for another gruelling session. But bless her, she hasnt given me any goals this time, and has said if I want to wallow in self pity at the moment then I can, cos she can see how really down I am feeling.
I was going to do a post about my feelings and how I still am missing someone so deeply, who broke my heart literally in two, but after therapy I really am not up to it now. Maybe later on..
Roll on January when normal service will be resumed!!
This sums me up at the moment..
This was taken from a wonderful persons blog, who I have been reading and have utmost respect for her.."Minx"
Tears of a clown...
Now if there's a smile on my face
It's only there tryin' to fool the public
But when it comes down to foolin' you
Now honey that's quite a different subject
So don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Cos really I'm sad (so sad sad)
Oh I'm sadder than sad (so sad sad)
Well I'm hurt and I want you so bad (so sad sad)
Like a clown I appear to be glad
There's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around
Now if I appear to be carefree
It's only to camouflage my sadness
And honey to shield my pride I try
To cover this hurt with a show of gladness
So don't let my show convince you
That I've been happy since you decided to go
Oh I need you so
Look I'm hurt and I want you to know
Just for others I put on a show
There's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown
Just like Pagliacci did
I'm gonna keep my surface hid
Hiding in my room I try
But in this lonely room I cry
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around
Don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Don't let this smile I wear
Make you feel that I don't care
The tears of a clown
(Copyright Smokey Robinson and the Miracles)
Tears of a clown...
Now if there's a smile on my face
It's only there tryin' to fool the public
But when it comes down to foolin' you
Now honey that's quite a different subject
So don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Cos really I'm sad (so sad sad)
Oh I'm sadder than sad (so sad sad)
Well I'm hurt and I want you so bad (so sad sad)
Like a clown I appear to be glad
There's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around
Now if I appear to be carefree
It's only to camouflage my sadness
And honey to shield my pride I try
To cover this hurt with a show of gladness
So don't let my show convince you
That I've been happy since you decided to go
Oh I need you so
Look I'm hurt and I want you to know
Just for others I put on a show
There's some sad things known to man
But ain't too much sadder than
The tears of a clown
Just like Pagliacci did
I'm gonna keep my surface hid
Hiding in my room I try
But in this lonely room I cry
The tears of a clown
When there's no one around
Don't let my glad expression
Give you the wrong impression
Don't let this smile I wear
Make you feel that I don't care
The tears of a clown
(Copyright Smokey Robinson and the Miracles)
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
How to confuse a girl..
Ack extreme tracking have changed their format. I just logged onto see my stats, and found out you can also see which country your viewer is from, as well as what operating system and browser they are using. It certainly confused me..lol. But then it doesnt take a lot to confuse me at the moment, my brain is definately not with it these days - I cant even blame being blonde as I'm not blonde..lol.
Wow - pat on the back to UPS America
D's christmas pressie arrived this morning, via UPS all the way from Discovery Store US after only being despatched on the 19th November, and it turned up this morning with a huge UPS delivery lorry, bearing in mind this is from the US to the UK :-)
And here it is:
I can't wait to see his face when he opens it on Christmas morning..lol. All he said to me was that he wanted a clock for his computer/hobby room. I couldnt resist this as I know he has been twittering on about getting it just hasnt got it yet..lol
I've also managed to get out of him what mobile phone he would like, so I shall be buying him that too for Christmas.. :-)
He can wait for his leather jacket till his birthday at the end of January this year :-)
And here it is:
I can't wait to see his face when he opens it on Christmas morning..lol. All he said to me was that he wanted a clock for his computer/hobby room. I couldnt resist this as I know he has been twittering on about getting it just hasnt got it yet..lol
I've also managed to get out of him what mobile phone he would like, so I shall be buying him that too for Christmas.. :-)
He can wait for his leather jacket till his birthday at the end of January this year :-)
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Aaaaaaaah viruses
What is it with people..so far my ISP has managed to stop 14 email viruses coming through my email account today. What is it target Nat day..lol.
All I can say is thank gods I have a good ISP that scans emails before delivering them.
*Update on weekend later today :-)*
All I can say is thank gods I have a good ISP that scans emails before delivering them.
*Update on weekend later today :-)*
Thursday, November 17, 2005
HNT - A bit late but here finally..
Not a lot to say about my HNT really..its a foot..lol.
If you want to join in go to:
If you want to join in go to:
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
A pondering thought about souls..
I have been giving this a lot of thought recently, well mainly since we have had Ollie my 5 year old cat.
Barney was a special cat, some would call a familiar, the way she behaved around me. She was always there with me when I was distressed, knew when I was coming home from somewhere etc.. she was in tune with my moods, in tune with absolutely everything about me. She had her funny little quirks, some were annoying and some were endearing.. But what I did know is that Barney would never leave me in life or even in death. She was truly a special cat and I was honoured to be her owner. But what I have noticed is that Ollie is doing absolutely everything that Barney used to do, sleep in her favourite places, sit in all her places.. know when I am upset, everything..as in he is in tune with me. And this is only after 6 weeks of owning him.
What I have been thinking is, is it possible for a soul of a cat that died to go into a cat that has been living for a while. As in the living cat almost takes on the dead cats soul I suppose, but still have their own quirks etc.. Now bearing in mind Ollie is 5, and Barney was 18y when she died - this just doesnt seem possible but it seems to be. Barney was still living when Ollie was born, so it cant be possible can it?
It is really weird, when Ollie is near me it is like Barney is there too. Ollie curls up with me at night while I am on the laptop in exactly the same places that Barney did, he even sleeps outside the airing cupboard door in exactly the same position that Barney used to be in.. it is so eerie.
When Ollie looks at me, it is almost as though he is looking deep into my soul with his eyes, as though he knows what I am thinking, as though he has known me before.
How can this be, when we have only had him for 6 weeks..
Barney was a special cat, some would call a familiar, the way she behaved around me. She was always there with me when I was distressed, knew when I was coming home from somewhere etc.. she was in tune with my moods, in tune with absolutely everything about me. She had her funny little quirks, some were annoying and some were endearing.. But what I did know is that Barney would never leave me in life or even in death. She was truly a special cat and I was honoured to be her owner. But what I have noticed is that Ollie is doing absolutely everything that Barney used to do, sleep in her favourite places, sit in all her places.. know when I am upset, everything..as in he is in tune with me. And this is only after 6 weeks of owning him.
What I have been thinking is, is it possible for a soul of a cat that died to go into a cat that has been living for a while. As in the living cat almost takes on the dead cats soul I suppose, but still have their own quirks etc.. Now bearing in mind Ollie is 5, and Barney was 18y when she died - this just doesnt seem possible but it seems to be. Barney was still living when Ollie was born, so it cant be possible can it?
It is really weird, when Ollie is near me it is like Barney is there too. Ollie curls up with me at night while I am on the laptop in exactly the same places that Barney did, he even sleeps outside the airing cupboard door in exactly the same position that Barney used to be in.. it is so eerie.
When Ollie looks at me, it is almost as though he is looking deep into my soul with his eyes, as though he knows what I am thinking, as though he has known me before.
How can this be, when we have only had him for 6 weeks..
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Am absolutely shattered..
Have been up since 6.45am this morning and am now shattered, plus I had a bad night anyway.. :-(
For some reason while watching the new version of Macbeth on t.v. last night I started getting all dizzy. Couldnt really explain it. Anyway just sat there hoping it would pass, but it got worse. If I stood up I fell down, and I felt really light headed. It was hard to explain, almost like being drunk but without the drink. Gods it felt weird.
When I went to bed, that was the worse feeling - everytime I layed down the room swam and I felt like I was falling. I ended up propping myself up on about 4 pillows just to stop myself from feeling giddy.
D and I thought that maybe it was my sugar levels taking one hell of a dive, so before I went to bed I ate a bar of chocolate, a banana and honey sandwich - just to send the sugar levels high.
After sleeping, the sleeping tablet knocked me out in the end..lol., I woke up at 6ish, saw D off to work and then cos I was wide awake got showered, dressed and did some bits around the house. I had all the housework done before 10am..that was good going for me.
Then when I sat down for a cuppa, wallop - the giddiness and wooziness came back with a vengenance, just this time I was feeling sick with it now. And it was like being drunk, but I hadnt had a drink - unless you count a cup of tea drink..lol. And thats how I have been on and off all day, normally when I sit down.
Don't ask me how but I have managed to stitch a piece on one of the RR's that I have, luckily it was a quick little letter - still have another letter to stitch then I can send it off.
Just got back from the Dr's after seeing the nurse, and have to increase my asthma medication from a blue inhaler to brown inhaler..ahhhhh!!! Its not fair as I dont get it all year, its what they call seasonal asthma - it is only bad when winter appears.. So I have to go for an asthma checkup, just to see what my peak flow is etc....
It also appears that I have vertigo, which is what the giddiness and wooziness is. And there isnt anything they can do, as its an ear infection or something to do with the ear, and you have to wait till it goes. Oh this is fun!!!!!!!
I rung D and asked him to shoot me..lol . You know if I was a horse I would have been shot ages ago.
For some reason while watching the new version of Macbeth on t.v. last night I started getting all dizzy. Couldnt really explain it. Anyway just sat there hoping it would pass, but it got worse. If I stood up I fell down, and I felt really light headed. It was hard to explain, almost like being drunk but without the drink. Gods it felt weird.
When I went to bed, that was the worse feeling - everytime I layed down the room swam and I felt like I was falling. I ended up propping myself up on about 4 pillows just to stop myself from feeling giddy.
D and I thought that maybe it was my sugar levels taking one hell of a dive, so before I went to bed I ate a bar of chocolate, a banana and honey sandwich - just to send the sugar levels high.
After sleeping, the sleeping tablet knocked me out in the end..lol., I woke up at 6ish, saw D off to work and then cos I was wide awake got showered, dressed and did some bits around the house. I had all the housework done before 10am..that was good going for me.
Then when I sat down for a cuppa, wallop - the giddiness and wooziness came back with a vengenance, just this time I was feeling sick with it now. And it was like being drunk, but I hadnt had a drink - unless you count a cup of tea drink..lol. And thats how I have been on and off all day, normally when I sit down.
Don't ask me how but I have managed to stitch a piece on one of the RR's that I have, luckily it was a quick little letter - still have another letter to stitch then I can send it off.
Just got back from the Dr's after seeing the nurse, and have to increase my asthma medication from a blue inhaler to brown inhaler..ahhhhh!!! Its not fair as I dont get it all year, its what they call seasonal asthma - it is only bad when winter appears.. So I have to go for an asthma checkup, just to see what my peak flow is etc....
It also appears that I have vertigo, which is what the giddiness and wooziness is. And there isnt anything they can do, as its an ear infection or something to do with the ear, and you have to wait till it goes. Oh this is fun!!!!!!!
I rung D and asked him to shoot me..lol . You know if I was a horse I would have been shot ages ago.
Sunday, November 13, 2005
The Haunted One
You are the haunted beauty whose life is marred by
sadness. You are dreamy, delicate, gentle and
melancholy. As tragically beautiful as any
Shakespearean heroine, you possess a doe-eyed
fragility that is strangely enchanting.
What's so scary about you: There is something
rather unsettling about your fragile beauty.
You are like a dream that no one can grasp.
Your gemstone: Moonstone
Your Moon: Ice Moon (January)
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Just a little something...
The Traditional Princess
You are generous, graceful, and practical with both
feet planted firmly on the ground. You tend to
be a little on the old-fashioned side. You
value home, hearth, and family life and love to
be of service to others.
Role Models: Snow White, Maid Marian
You are most likely to: Discover a hidden talent
for spinning straw into gold.
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You are a Lily:
You are graceful, gentle, calm, and pure and
perhaps a little shy (though your shyness is
part of your charm). You are a very honorable
person who always wants to do the right thing.
Your calm attitude has a soothing effect on
others.
Symbolism: The lily has long been used as a symbol
of majesty, honor, chastity, and purity of
heart.
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Aaaah...stitching...aaaaaaaaaah!!
Someone shoot me please... I have been rapidly stitching the replacement halloween piece for someone on one of my boards, where delightful Royal Mail has lost the original piece.. well anyway I have been stitching away on it like a bloody mad thing all weekend and best part of Friday, and it is driving me absolutely bonkers. To the point where I have shelved it and am now going to tackle another piece that shouldnt take so long...
It beat me I am afraid..I just couldnt stitch with black floss for hours at a time.. someone tell me why I had decided to do it..lol. Anyway I am going to put it in my bag of stitching and will stitch it for myself, or possibly for next years halloween exchange - but at least I wont hate the damn thing by the time I have finished it at my own leisure..
So I have just printed off this gorgeous piece to stitch which I will sit and stitch today, since my ironing has all been done for the weekend and the housework is up to date..so I can curl up in a freezing cold living room, I havent given in to putting the heating on yet, but will have to I think..*
Now I am off to soak in a HOT bath, with some gorgeous smellies, and find something warm to wear :-) Then find something on t.v. (that isnt a Rememberance Sunday service) and curl up with my new piece of stitching.
It beat me I am afraid..I just couldnt stitch with black floss for hours at a time.. someone tell me why I had decided to do it..lol. Anyway I am going to put it in my bag of stitching and will stitch it for myself, or possibly for next years halloween exchange - but at least I wont hate the damn thing by the time I have finished it at my own leisure..
So I have just printed off this gorgeous piece to stitch which I will sit and stitch today, since my ironing has all been done for the weekend and the housework is up to date..so I can curl up in a freezing cold living room, I havent given in to putting the heating on yet, but will have to I think..*
Now I am off to soak in a HOT bath, with some gorgeous smellies, and find something warm to wear :-) Then find something on t.v. (that isnt a Rememberance Sunday service) and curl up with my new piece of stitching.
Friday, November 11, 2005
I've been made a Sim..wohooo!!!
Yippeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! Sorry am over the moon, Robin from Adventures in Cyberia has created a sim for me.. :) I am now a fully fledged member of the Fleiss crew :) I am the one in the black skirt and reddish hair :)
Once blogger decides it is going to let me upload photo's via its own upload tool I will be able to put a photo up..stupid thing is having a hissy fit..lol.
Once blogger decides it is going to let me upload photo's via its own upload tool I will be able to put a photo up..stupid thing is having a hissy fit..lol.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
I GIVE UP"!!
I am taking time away from everything, I have had enough at the moment. Cant go into detail but suffice to say my name is mud now because of bloody Royal Mail.
So until I feel strong enough to cope with the way some people now think of me I am going to take some time out of everything..I have got a fair bit going on with my therapy and psychiatrist that I need to deal with anyway, plus am increasing my medications..
I will be back but just not as often as I am now.
So until I feel strong enough to cope with the way some people now think of me I am going to take some time out of everything..I have got a fair bit going on with my therapy and psychiatrist that I need to deal with anyway, plus am increasing my medications..
I will be back but just not as often as I am now.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhh Royal Mail..
Yes that is me screaming - bloody Royal Mail have done their sodding usul trick..aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!
I checked with D that he had definately sent my halloween exchange to Flipp last week, and he said it went on Saturday morning while he was shopping. Hmmmmm this didnt sound right..how can he have sent it while shopping as the post office is nowhere near the supermarket.. So after further investigation I got out of him that he had put it in the post box at the supermarket so that it caught the midday collection...aaaaaaaaaah!! At this point I felt like clouting him one, I had specifically told him to go to the post office and send RD.. I asked him why he hadnt sent it RD, and his response was "well it had a stamp on it so I thought it was to go normal mail"...aaaaaaaaah!!
I am going to kill him soon..so what with Royal Mail and D doing not what I asked..my exchange piece hasn't arrived at its destination.. Now I feel bloody awful as Flipp hasnt received anything..grrrr!!
So tomorrow I am going to frantically stitch another piece for her and get it sent RD without D's help this time..
I hate RM, not only have they lost this piece they have lost a card that I sent to Gertrude in Malta for her birthday a few days ago..this card was actually sent a week and a half before the birthday....
So if anyone reads in the paper that a Kent woman has spontaneously combusted in a hissy fit after killing husband and doing horrible things to Royal Mail, then its only me..
I give up........aaaaaaaaaaaah!!
I checked with D that he had definately sent my halloween exchange to Flipp last week, and he said it went on Saturday morning while he was shopping. Hmmmmm this didnt sound right..how can he have sent it while shopping as the post office is nowhere near the supermarket.. So after further investigation I got out of him that he had put it in the post box at the supermarket so that it caught the midday collection...aaaaaaaaaah!! At this point I felt like clouting him one, I had specifically told him to go to the post office and send RD.. I asked him why he hadnt sent it RD, and his response was "well it had a stamp on it so I thought it was to go normal mail"...aaaaaaaaah!!
I am going to kill him soon..so what with Royal Mail and D doing not what I asked..my exchange piece hasn't arrived at its destination.. Now I feel bloody awful as Flipp hasnt received anything..grrrr!!
So tomorrow I am going to frantically stitch another piece for her and get it sent RD without D's help this time..
I hate RM, not only have they lost this piece they have lost a card that I sent to Gertrude in Malta for her birthday a few days ago..this card was actually sent a week and a half before the birthday....
So if anyone reads in the paper that a Kent woman has spontaneously combusted in a hissy fit after killing husband and doing horrible things to Royal Mail, then its only me..
I give up........aaaaaaaaaaaah!!
Not a lot to put - bully cat and throat
Haven't got a lot to put, but I do know that Ollie, our newish cat, is starting to assert himself. He has discovered he can bully my dog Scruffybear..lol. If Bear is wanting to get past Ollie, then Ollie wont let him.. he sits there all proud and just stares at Bear. I found a typical example of this just now - I could hear Bear but I couldnt see him..so I looked around and there he was perched on the last stair of our stairway and who was sitting at the bottom..yep Ollie. He was just sitting there all puffed up and looking quite scary to the dog..lol. Ooops mustn't laugh but it was so funny to see this 3stone of a dog scared to go past this 1stone of a cat..
Anyway I called Bear and told him to just go past Ollie, so he did, and Ollie didnt do a thing...lol.
Then to add insult to injury Smudge, my oldest cat, just went to sleep on Bears doggy bed. Poor Bear he is getting a rough deal at the moment..lol. I just wish he wasn't such a wimp with the cats.. outdoors he is all big and brave and can stand up for himself but as soon as he goes through the front door its like another dog..
I'm not feeling too good either today, have had signs of my neck glands starting to swell the past couple of days, and this morning I woke up with one side of my neck looking like a football..and my glands on that side are killing me. I dont really feel ill, just tired and achey, not sure if its a countereffect of the sinusitis I have just got over.
Well driving should be interesting later when I go for my appointment, I cant turn my neck to the left without yelping..lol.
Oh and a bit of good news, I am a happy bunny as I have now got Bon Jovi's new album, Il Divo's new one and I am trying out Evanescence's Fallen album. Also have got Ozzy Osbourne's new one "Under Covers" and Deep Purple's "Rapture of The Deep" for D.
*Breaking news = David Seaman (Arsenal Goalkeeper) has just had his famous ponytail chopped off live on "This Morning" on ITV at 11.20am today.."
Anyway I called Bear and told him to just go past Ollie, so he did, and Ollie didnt do a thing...lol.
Then to add insult to injury Smudge, my oldest cat, just went to sleep on Bears doggy bed. Poor Bear he is getting a rough deal at the moment..lol. I just wish he wasn't such a wimp with the cats.. outdoors he is all big and brave and can stand up for himself but as soon as he goes through the front door its like another dog..
I'm not feeling too good either today, have had signs of my neck glands starting to swell the past couple of days, and this morning I woke up with one side of my neck looking like a football..and my glands on that side are killing me. I dont really feel ill, just tired and achey, not sure if its a countereffect of the sinusitis I have just got over.
Well driving should be interesting later when I go for my appointment, I cant turn my neck to the left without yelping..lol.
Oh and a bit of good news, I am a happy bunny as I have now got Bon Jovi's new album, Il Divo's new one and I am trying out Evanescence's Fallen album. Also have got Ozzy Osbourne's new one "Under Covers" and Deep Purple's "Rapture of The Deep" for D.
*Breaking news = David Seaman (Arsenal Goalkeeper) has just had his famous ponytail chopped off live on "This Morning" on ITV at 11.20am today.."
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
The most weirdest dream..
I had a really odd dream last night, and it is soooooo vivid this morning I cannot believe it.
This dream was with my beloved Barney - my gorgeous cat that died back in August. It was almost like Barney was alive and well again. She looked so healthy and her coat was so glossy..but she was a ghost. She never ate, or drunk or used the litter tray the whole time she was with me in this dream. When she had to go she would go through a keyhole in the door, or a small crack in the window where it was open a wee bit.. it was really odd.
Yet you could hold her, touch her, cuddle her or snuggle into her fur - and she smelt so like Barney. She purred when you cuddled her, or she sat on your lap when you wanted to be quiet. It felt so real that I really thought she was alive still and with me.
When I woke up, I didnt feel distressed that she was gone, for some reason I felt a lovely calm over me, and knew that my Barney was with me at all times, always there to give me a cuddle.
I always said when we buried her, that she wasnt gone and that if anyone would come back to me in death, it would be my Barney. And she has made herself known finally..
Its really strange though, but since this dream last night - this morning I have been calm, and I know that things are going to be okay however difficult it may feel at the time.
This dream was with my beloved Barney - my gorgeous cat that died back in August. It was almost like Barney was alive and well again. She looked so healthy and her coat was so glossy..but she was a ghost. She never ate, or drunk or used the litter tray the whole time she was with me in this dream. When she had to go she would go through a keyhole in the door, or a small crack in the window where it was open a wee bit.. it was really odd.
Yet you could hold her, touch her, cuddle her or snuggle into her fur - and she smelt so like Barney. She purred when you cuddled her, or she sat on your lap when you wanted to be quiet. It felt so real that I really thought she was alive still and with me.
When I woke up, I didnt feel distressed that she was gone, for some reason I felt a lovely calm over me, and knew that my Barney was with me at all times, always there to give me a cuddle.
I always said when we buried her, that she wasnt gone and that if anyone would come back to me in death, it would be my Barney. And she has made herself known finally..
Its really strange though, but since this dream last night - this morning I have been calm, and I know that things are going to be okay however difficult it may feel at the time.
Monday, November 07, 2005
Me-me Monday
Ok here goes, I am joining in with the me-me Monday, so here it is..
#23 - I adore the snow
I have always loved the snow, and the deeper the better. I dont like it when it goes all slushy from people having walked on it, or cars driving in it, but its the kind of snow that has just fallen and it is untouched. To me it is just like someone has sprinkled the pavement or garden with icing sugar.
I am not sure when this deep love with snow happened, as we certainly dont get enough snow here in the UK, and I know I didnt see a lot of snow as a child. Maybe its the idealistic pictures we see on the t.v or on postcards, but to me I would be in absolute heaven if I could live somewhere that had plenty of snow.
But, and yes there is a but, the weather has to be just right too. As in the sky has to just blue, just the right amount of clouds and certainly no sign of any more snow coming down.
Do you know maybe I should have been a polar bear..lol.
And there is my reasoning behind no 23 on my "100 things about me"
Friday, November 04, 2005
Woohoo its friday.. I think!!
Well today has been a bit up in the air. What with having to go to the Dr's for my flu jab :( Yep I actually got asked to go along to have a flu jab cos I am diabetic and have asthma, and here's me been avoiding the jab for the past god knows how many years..lol. Now whats the betting I get blooming flu this year...lol.
Anyway then I had to pick D's prescription up , why do the flipping local chemistsd around us have to be shut on a Saturday now - if its not enough our Dr's is shut on a Saturday now the chemists are following suit..lol. Anyway we now have his antihistamines for the next two months..:-)
I also finally went up to the local hospital near me to have my blood taken - yep its only taken me 6 months to get the blood taken. I honestly dont have a fear of needles..honest!!! So now I am going to have a lovely bruised arm..grr!!!
Had good post arrive this morning, the new and uptodate interface card arrived for my computer was delivered from Amazon. This is brilliant service as I only ordered it Wednesday night at 10pm..lol. Also the photos that I had developed from Asda.co.uk arrived as well this morning - they were also ordered at 10pm Wednesday night :-) Brilliant service from both companies.. But I shall definately be using Asda to develop my pictures again, all you have to do is download your photos from your digital camera to your computer, then upload to a folder on the Asda website and then they develop them from that folder - aaah the joys of modern technology.
Must admit I was absolutely shattered today as we had D's carers assessment last night. A lovely man called Peter came to the house and was absolutely brilliant. He has put Ds name through to a couple of support workers in the area and they will be getting in touch with him..plus he was actually encouraged to go out to a couple of meetings and outings they go on.. that I have to see..he doesnt go out anywhere on his own..lol. Anyway the good news is that we are finally going to get the support for D, so he isnt going through coping with me on his own..not that I am that bad its just at least he now knows he can interact with other people that are caring for someone who is going through what I am.
Also had another bit of good news when D came home last night - he has got another job. Woohoo!! Well its still in the bank but its in the new glass tower at Canary Wharf. He's on the 23rd floor, there's something like 60 floors..lol. Scary! The weird bit is he didnt even have an interview - he was at the right place at the right time..plus he was talking to an old mate and he introduced him to one of the directors who was pretty impressed with D. The upshot of it is that this director called D's boss yesterday afternoon to ask for him to be released, as they were going to offer him the job. D is absolutely over the moon, more money, less working hours and travelling hours - so he's happy. I'm not cos it means he will be at home a bit more often..aaaack!! Oh well we can work around that I imagine..lol.
So thats it really I think.. I am still stitching, and I am hoping to stitch a couple of Christmas ornaments this weekend :-)
Anyway then I had to pick D's prescription up , why do the flipping local chemistsd around us have to be shut on a Saturday now - if its not enough our Dr's is shut on a Saturday now the chemists are following suit..lol. Anyway we now have his antihistamines for the next two months..:-)
I also finally went up to the local hospital near me to have my blood taken - yep its only taken me 6 months to get the blood taken. I honestly dont have a fear of needles..honest!!! So now I am going to have a lovely bruised arm..grr!!!
Had good post arrive this morning, the new and uptodate interface card arrived for my computer was delivered from Amazon. This is brilliant service as I only ordered it Wednesday night at 10pm..lol. Also the photos that I had developed from Asda.co.uk arrived as well this morning - they were also ordered at 10pm Wednesday night :-) Brilliant service from both companies.. But I shall definately be using Asda to develop my pictures again, all you have to do is download your photos from your digital camera to your computer, then upload to a folder on the Asda website and then they develop them from that folder - aaah the joys of modern technology.
Must admit I was absolutely shattered today as we had D's carers assessment last night. A lovely man called Peter came to the house and was absolutely brilliant. He has put Ds name through to a couple of support workers in the area and they will be getting in touch with him..plus he was actually encouraged to go out to a couple of meetings and outings they go on.. that I have to see..he doesnt go out anywhere on his own..lol. Anyway the good news is that we are finally going to get the support for D, so he isnt going through coping with me on his own..not that I am that bad its just at least he now knows he can interact with other people that are caring for someone who is going through what I am.
Also had another bit of good news when D came home last night - he has got another job. Woohoo!! Well its still in the bank but its in the new glass tower at Canary Wharf. He's on the 23rd floor, there's something like 60 floors..lol. Scary! The weird bit is he didnt even have an interview - he was at the right place at the right time..plus he was talking to an old mate and he introduced him to one of the directors who was pretty impressed with D. The upshot of it is that this director called D's boss yesterday afternoon to ask for him to be released, as they were going to offer him the job. D is absolutely over the moon, more money, less working hours and travelling hours - so he's happy. I'm not cos it means he will be at home a bit more often..aaaack!! Oh well we can work around that I imagine..lol.
So thats it really I think.. I am still stitching, and I am hoping to stitch a couple of Christmas ornaments this weekend :-)
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Therapy..
Well therapy went really well this morning, although I was absoultely shattered after having to get up at 7am and taking a sleeping tablet last night.
Hadnt seen Wendy (my therapist) for three weeks as she was away backpacking in Naples, and boy did it show..I was all a rambling away, just talking about nothing. Bless her, she sat and listened to me, then when I finished she asked the normal questions..lol.
I have made her a promise, which I must keep - and that is to walk Bear, my dog, Monday , Wednesday and Friday till I see her next, and this has to start tomorrow..ack!!!
We also decided that I was becoming a bit of a recluse so we are going to try and make improvements on this. Hey I go out, even if its to Asda and occasionally I will pop into town - WOW!!! I do pop to Herne Bay to see my mate Barbara now and again.. so its not really reclusive as such..lol
Oooh I made a new blogging friend yesterday or should that be this morning by the time I read the email..lol. Hello dh :) Hopefully this will be the start of a good friendship, time will tell :)
Well thats all for now, nothing else to tell..lol. *dont I lead an exciting life..NOT!!*
Hadnt seen Wendy (my therapist) for three weeks as she was away backpacking in Naples, and boy did it show..I was all a rambling away, just talking about nothing. Bless her, she sat and listened to me, then when I finished she asked the normal questions..lol.
I have made her a promise, which I must keep - and that is to walk Bear, my dog, Monday , Wednesday and Friday till I see her next, and this has to start tomorrow..ack!!!
We also decided that I was becoming a bit of a recluse so we are going to try and make improvements on this. Hey I go out, even if its to Asda and occasionally I will pop into town - WOW!!! I do pop to Herne Bay to see my mate Barbara now and again.. so its not really reclusive as such..lol
Oooh I made a new blogging friend yesterday or should that be this morning by the time I read the email..lol. Hello dh :) Hopefully this will be the start of a good friendship, time will tell :)
Well thats all for now, nothing else to tell..lol. *dont I lead an exciting life..NOT!!*
I am succumbing..lol
Ok after seeing so many HNT's I have decided to be a follower too.. so here's my HNT:
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Wooohooo...finally got the new modem..plus..........
I am running at a total of 10mb :-)
Good old telewest have upgraded us from 4mb to 10mb, and the difference in speed is absoutely mind blowing. I cant believe how quick everything is loading up. Its almost like the page loads before you blink..lol.
Although I must admit I really didnt think we were going to get this new modem. The technician was booked to come between 8-12pm today, so I got up at 6.30am. Now this is a miracle in itself as I am not a morning person, in fact I dont normally get up before 9am. Well I must admit after getting myself showered and dressed and ready for 8am, I did over 3 hours of ironing..blimey I never realised I had that much ironing. In fact I actually have another 3 hours worth left to iron if I am realistic. :-( But at least I am making headway :-)
Anyway it got to 12pm and no sign of engineer, so I rang Telewest to see where the nice man had gone. Only to find out that it hadnt been booked..AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH I had booked it back on 26th October..grrr Anyway they booked an emergency appointment for between 4 and 7pm tonight, but the nice man turned up at 4pm deadon and the switchover of the old modem to the new modem was painless.
I am so happy...it is running like a dream :-)
Good old telewest have upgraded us from 4mb to 10mb, and the difference in speed is absoutely mind blowing. I cant believe how quick everything is loading up. Its almost like the page loads before you blink..lol.
Although I must admit I really didnt think we were going to get this new modem. The technician was booked to come between 8-12pm today, so I got up at 6.30am. Now this is a miracle in itself as I am not a morning person, in fact I dont normally get up before 9am. Well I must admit after getting myself showered and dressed and ready for 8am, I did over 3 hours of ironing..blimey I never realised I had that much ironing. In fact I actually have another 3 hours worth left to iron if I am realistic. :-( But at least I am making headway :-)
Anyway it got to 12pm and no sign of engineer, so I rang Telewest to see where the nice man had gone. Only to find out that it hadnt been booked..AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH I had booked it back on 26th October..grrr Anyway they booked an emergency appointment for between 4 and 7pm tonight, but the nice man turned up at 4pm deadon and the switchover of the old modem to the new modem was painless.
I am so happy...it is running like a dream :-)
Monday, October 31, 2005
Count Your Blessings..
I saw this while I was browsing a witchy site, and thought it was lovely.. So I had to share it.
Think of all the things in your life for which you are thankful. It should be fairly easy to come up with a long list. If you're having trouble, start with life itself, the beauty of the world around you, the opportunity to learn and grow. Consider your family, friends, people who sincerely care about you, your work, your faith, your home, your community, the joys you've known, the things you have to look forward to.
Think of all the things for which you're grateful. Dwell on them and consider how richly blessed you are. Gratitude will energize you and propel your life toward even greater joy and fulfillment, because abundance beings with gratitude. The more you focus on the positive side of life, the more positive and energized your life becomes.
Whatever disappointments you may have, there is always something for which to be thankful. Appreciate the good things, and they will grow. Focus on your blessings, and energize your life with gratitude.
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS......
.Think of all the things in your life for which you are thankful. It should be fairly easy to come up with a long list. If you're having trouble, start with life itself, the beauty of the world around you, the opportunity to learn and grow. Consider your family, friends, people who sincerely care about you, your work, your faith, your home, your community, the joys you've known, the things you have to look forward to.
Think of all the things for which you're grateful. Dwell on them and consider how richly blessed you are. Gratitude will energize you and propel your life toward even greater joy and fulfillment, because abundance beings with gratitude. The more you focus on the positive side of life, the more positive and energized your life becomes.
Whatever disappointments you may have, there is always something for which to be thankful. Appreciate the good things, and they will grow. Focus on your blessings, and energize your life with gratitude.
-Author Unknown
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Imitation..
Only a short blog at the moment...all I want to say is:
Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery - so thank you, you know who you are.. :-)
Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery - so thank you, you know who you are.. :-)
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Aaaah..
Now my blog is playing up...the stupid thing wont let me load a moon phase or a site meter counter...
Where did this huge gap at the top come from...? Hmmm needs investigating I think..
Where did this huge gap at the top come from...? Hmmm needs investigating I think..
Monday, October 24, 2005
I hate Haloscan..
GRRR!!!!!
For some reason everytime I try and add a comment to various blogs that use Haloscan, the stupid thing doesnt let me - keeps coming up as done and a blank page.
It hates me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For some reason everytime I try and add a comment to various blogs that use Haloscan, the stupid thing doesnt let me - keeps coming up as done and a blank page.
It hates me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ideas for new name for DH
I have decided to give DH a blog name after reading several blogs that have got names for their OH's...for example "Rachel" calls her DH " Mr Newt" on her blog. So I have decided now is the time to refer to DH as a name rather than DH....
I am opening this up to ideas from the other bloggers that I read or read me..etc.. If you need any help, then my DH is a banker, is a steam train fanatic, and is into heavy metal. Eeeks makes him sound rather weird writing that..lol.
So comeon all comments welcome, and lets all pick a new name for DH..
I am opening this up to ideas from the other bloggers that I read or read me..etc.. If you need any help, then my DH is a banker, is a steam train fanatic, and is into heavy metal. Eeeks makes him sound rather weird writing that..lol.
So comeon all comments welcome, and lets all pick a new name for DH..
Feeling like pooh...
Its now the third day and this damn migraine does not want to shift.. :-( it is now firmly sitting above my left eye and making my head feel like someone has tied a really small elastic band around it..aaaaaaaaahhh!!! I suppose the last place I should be is on here but I wanted to let my poor readers (yep I have a few..lol) know where I am..lol. Am popping pain killers for some relief, and in the short time I do get some relief I am dragging myself through the things that need doing.. Trouble is the relief doesnt last long..:-(
I cant stitch cos its too damn painful to see to concentrate, have to watch the t.v. with the sound on low and the brightness down to the bare minimum, and have the curtains all drawn cos its too bright indoors.
So I am going to drown myself in the bath with my lovely new Lush products - Fresh Pharmacy for my face and Heavenly Bodies butter cream and then to finish it off King of Skin body butter. Believe me they are absolutely heaven, and thank you to deadly for telling me about these delightful products. Although I did already have fresh pharmacy from lush, just hadnt tried the others. DH liked the other products, after I tried them yesterday :-) He said my skin was so smooth and smelt lovely all day through. Bliss!!!
I cant stitch cos its too damn painful to see to concentrate, have to watch the t.v. with the sound on low and the brightness down to the bare minimum, and have the curtains all drawn cos its too bright indoors.
So I am going to drown myself in the bath with my lovely new Lush products - Fresh Pharmacy for my face and Heavenly Bodies butter cream and then to finish it off King of Skin body butter. Believe me they are absolutely heaven, and thank you to deadly for telling me about these delightful products. Although I did already have fresh pharmacy from lush, just hadnt tried the others. DH liked the other products, after I tried them yesterday :-) He said my skin was so smooth and smelt lovely all day through. Bliss!!!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
To all my friends in the Florida area..
I am keeping my fingers crossed that all my online friends will be kept safe during Hurricane Wilma ...
Feeling okay ....
Just wanted to say thank you to everyone that has posted their comments on my previous post. They really cheered me up while I was feeling down. I feel blessed to have such good friends online.
On another note, Christmas seems to be coming earlier and earlier..DH keeps coming home from work with Christmas gift catalogues..lol.
*Normal service will be resumed shortly..*
On another note, Christmas seems to be coming earlier and earlier..DH keeps coming home from work with Christmas gift catalogues..lol.
*Normal service will be resumed shortly..*
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Plese don't despair....
Last night I started to recognise the usual signs of me going majorly downhill big time. Trouble is I couldn't stop it at all, and although it is a slow process nonetheless it is happening. And you know why, its bloody winter!! The evenings are dark by 6pm, the weather is crap and so is my mood.
I also didn't realise how much I was hoping to not get a visit from 'aunt flo', I am feeling my clock ticking away and know that I don't have long left if I want my dearest wish to come true. But I will be honest, I do not want D's, my dearest wish is to have a child with J. Impossible, I can hear that voice in my head saying, the one that's called a conscience.. I don't give a flying fig about my conscience..sometimes I don't give a f*** about my own feelings.
I am getting so fed up now with having to put the lovely face on for everyone, being all jolly online and offline. I do wish I could let my friends see how I am really feeling but they don't want to see me being a miserable bitch all the time. That would be the quickest way of losing friends I think.. so what do I do? Yep I keep it all bottled up till it gets to the point where I can no longer keep it contained. It starts to eat away at me, just a slow knawing then it gets bigger and bigger till it completely takes over and has completely eaten me up. I want to curl up, bury myself under the duvet, heck even run away to where no-one knows me where I can just lose myself amongst the crowd and become a nobody.
I wish my DH wasn't being such a love and understanding me so much. He never complains when he sees me going downhill, sees the state of the house etc.. he lets me work it out myself without questioning why I am doing this or not doing that. If he knew that inside I was still crying because I wanted J so much. I would sell my soul to the devil if I could have my best friend back. I miss being able to ring him up and talk about how my day has been or how I am feeling, or hearing how he has been doing this and that.. I miss being able to send him daft emails during the day telling him stuff, like how Bear has been etc.. I miss having him in my life so much it hurts. I don't want J as a lover, or anything like that, I want him in my life as my best friend. He knew me and I knew him, we bounced off each other, t was a friendship that would last or so I thought. We always said that if we ever split up we would always be there for each other, always be friends no matter what.. How come its so hard to lose a friend rather than a lover. J was/is my soulmate and always will be, there is no doubt about that. Maybe that's why I am holding onto M so much, trying to recreate something that I so desperately want but cant have..
Why can life not be easy, why are there so many trials sent to us, and why the heck am I not getting strong enough to handle these trials. Just when I think I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I feel as though I am being dragged back, all the life is being sucked out of me.
If only taking pills would make it all go away, or cutting would take the pain away but it doesn't. It just makes it worse!
Please let it get easier, please can I curl up and hope it all goes away?. Please can I have my best friend/soulmate back?
I also didn't realise how much I was hoping to not get a visit from 'aunt flo', I am feeling my clock ticking away and know that I don't have long left if I want my dearest wish to come true. But I will be honest, I do not want D's, my dearest wish is to have a child with J. Impossible, I can hear that voice in my head saying, the one that's called a conscience.. I don't give a flying fig about my conscience..sometimes I don't give a f*** about my own feelings.
I am getting so fed up now with having to put the lovely face on for everyone, being all jolly online and offline. I do wish I could let my friends see how I am really feeling but they don't want to see me being a miserable bitch all the time. That would be the quickest way of losing friends I think.. so what do I do? Yep I keep it all bottled up till it gets to the point where I can no longer keep it contained. It starts to eat away at me, just a slow knawing then it gets bigger and bigger till it completely takes over and has completely eaten me up. I want to curl up, bury myself under the duvet, heck even run away to where no-one knows me where I can just lose myself amongst the crowd and become a nobody.
I wish my DH wasn't being such a love and understanding me so much. He never complains when he sees me going downhill, sees the state of the house etc.. he lets me work it out myself without questioning why I am doing this or not doing that. If he knew that inside I was still crying because I wanted J so much. I would sell my soul to the devil if I could have my best friend back. I miss being able to ring him up and talk about how my day has been or how I am feeling, or hearing how he has been doing this and that.. I miss being able to send him daft emails during the day telling him stuff, like how Bear has been etc.. I miss having him in my life so much it hurts. I don't want J as a lover, or anything like that, I want him in my life as my best friend. He knew me and I knew him, we bounced off each other, t was a friendship that would last or so I thought. We always said that if we ever split up we would always be there for each other, always be friends no matter what.. How come its so hard to lose a friend rather than a lover. J was/is my soulmate and always will be, there is no doubt about that. Maybe that's why I am holding onto M so much, trying to recreate something that I so desperately want but cant have..
Why can life not be easy, why are there so many trials sent to us, and why the heck am I not getting strong enough to handle these trials. Just when I think I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I feel as though I am being dragged back, all the life is being sucked out of me.
If only taking pills would make it all go away, or cutting would take the pain away but it doesn't. It just makes it worse!
Please let it get easier, please can I curl up and hope it all goes away?. Please can I have my best friend/soulmate back?
Monday, October 17, 2005
Icky and "flo"
Well good news and bad news..lol. Am still feeling decidedly sick, although it is more nausea now rather than actually being sick, and "aunt flo" has popped in.
So DH has breathed a sigh of relief, me I am more than a little disappointed, and angry at DH with his reaction, especially after a discussion yesterday. But that isnt relevant anymore now..oh well!!!
Now where did I put those pain killers..aaaaaaah I hate stomach cramps ! Now why couldnt we have had something simple like measles every month instead of this..ugh!!
So DH has breathed a sigh of relief, me I am more than a little disappointed, and angry at DH with his reaction, especially after a discussion yesterday. But that isnt relevant anymore now..oh well!!!
Now where did I put those pain killers..aaaaaaah I hate stomach cramps ! Now why couldnt we have had something simple like measles every month instead of this..ugh!!
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Goddess of porcelain..
Ugh!! I still feel nauseaus, although not as bad as I did yesterday. I was so icky that I actually took myself back to bed for the day, and only got out to say hello to the porcelain goddess. :( I have now become personally aquainted with this white goddess that I feel an instant empathy now with her..:p
And still no sign of "aunt flo"..oops!!!
And still no sign of "aunt flo"..oops!!!
Piccies - 1st Christmas Ornie and Ollie
I finally have a christmas ornie hd, my first one this year :) Its by Glory Bee and is from the Just Cross Stitch Ornaments 2004 or 2005 issue (cant remember, and mag isnt nearby..lol) I substituted my own colours instead of the ones suggested :)
And here's a couple of Ollie, taken a couple of days ago :) As you can see he has certainly made himself at home, in fact its hard to believe he has only been with us for a fortnight now, it feels like he has always been with us :) He is such a character too, and is full of life.
And here's a couple of Ollie, taken a couple of days ago :) As you can see he has certainly made himself at home, in fact its hard to believe he has only been with us for a fortnight now, it feels like he has always been with us :) He is such a character too, and is full of life.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Mmmm cream cheese and honey..
I have just grossed DH out..lol. I was feeling peckish, well actually peckish is a bit of an understatement, bloody ravenous is the word!! Anyway I really fancied a cream cheese sandwich or a honey sandwich, but I couldnt decide on which one so I had cream cheese and honey in a sandwich together.. :-) Now this might sound really gross to some, but believe me it was absolutely gorgeous....
Before I go - waves to my Barnsley reader..
I see that the Blueyonder customer that lives in Barnsley, Yorkshire is still reading my blog. I do hope you are enjoying reading all about my mundane life.. But can I suggest something to you, if you dont like someone then dont read all about them..it must be very tedious for you. :-)
Found!!!! And icky me!! And some good news..lol
I have found the 2004 JCS Ornament magazine :-) It was in the drawer with all my other JCS mags all the time - doh!!! Still I can stop panicking now..lol.
And the icky bit..thats me :-(
I should have taken a degree in the workings of a womens body..lol. Why when you are waiting for something it doesnt arrive on time,when every month for the past 12 months it arrives on time, grrr.. plus I have been feeling decidingly sicky the past two days.. The mornings I am feeling not too bad, but come 5pm my stomach is doing somersaults all on its own. Last night I was laying in bed trying to get to sleep, and couldnt decide whether to get to the loo and say hello to the porecelain goddess or hope it goes away or I fall asleep soon. Luckily I fell asleep and woke up feeling not too bad. Now its 5.30pm and I am feeling really icky again..and if I go to pee again this afternoon I will scream..I'm thinking of taking up residence in the small room..lol.Oh well I am sure it will sort itself out in due course..one way or t'other :-)
But I did have some good news this morning :-) I got a statement from my bank and I couldnt believe it, the £450 odd overdraft I had, has been wiped clean. :-) I sent them a letter saying that there was no way I could afford to pay it all off in one go and would they accept payments each month..well I hadnt heard from them so I assumed they werent going to be very forthcoming. Anyway it turns out that they have recredited the debit interest, which is what the overdraft was anyway, and I have a nil balance :-) Way to go for Nationwide :-)
And the other bit is that Telewest have upgraded the t.v. system to a new thing. Its like TiVo but not quite Tivo.. but you can watch the previous weeks programmes all the following week, so if you miss the likes of Casualty on Saturday you can watch it again on Monday if you want..or even again on Wednesday :-) They've also upgraded the internet service we have now from 4mb to 10mb :-) So in amongst the icky feeling I am feeling reasonably pleased with myself :-)
And the icky bit..thats me :-(
I should have taken a degree in the workings of a womens body..lol. Why when you are waiting for something it doesnt arrive on time,when every month for the past 12 months it arrives on time, grrr.. plus I have been feeling decidingly sicky the past two days.. The mornings I am feeling not too bad, but come 5pm my stomach is doing somersaults all on its own. Last night I was laying in bed trying to get to sleep, and couldnt decide whether to get to the loo and say hello to the porecelain goddess or hope it goes away or I fall asleep soon. Luckily I fell asleep and woke up feeling not too bad. Now its 5.30pm and I am feeling really icky again..and if I go to pee again this afternoon I will scream..I'm thinking of taking up residence in the small room..lol.Oh well I am sure it will sort itself out in due course..one way or t'other :-)
But I did have some good news this morning :-) I got a statement from my bank and I couldnt believe it, the £450 odd overdraft I had, has been wiped clean. :-) I sent them a letter saying that there was no way I could afford to pay it all off in one go and would they accept payments each month..well I hadnt heard from them so I assumed they werent going to be very forthcoming. Anyway it turns out that they have recredited the debit interest, which is what the overdraft was anyway, and I have a nil balance :-) Way to go for Nationwide :-)
And the other bit is that Telewest have upgraded the t.v. system to a new thing. Its like TiVo but not quite Tivo.. but you can watch the previous weeks programmes all the following week, so if you miss the likes of Casualty on Saturday you can watch it again on Monday if you want..or even again on Wednesday :-) They've also upgraded the internet service we have now from 4mb to 10mb :-) So in amongst the icky feeling I am feeling reasonably pleased with myself :-)
Last one of me...lol
Ok as you can see I am rather pleased with the photos of myself lately - the reason being is that I have lost a fair amount of weight over the past 6 months :-) So I am really happy with actually showing pictures of myself..lol.
I hate having my photo taken..:-) Plus I think having my hair up does nothing for me..lol. This was taken on the 1st October of this year :-)
I hate having my photo taken..:-) Plus I think having my hair up does nothing for me..lol. This was taken on the 1st October of this year :-)
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Just a wee piccie
After talking to a good friend on MSN I have decided to put this photo that was taken of me two weeks ago :)
Sorry about the lack of smiling..lol
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Feel like c***
Dont want to do anything today, it was an effort to get out of bed this morning as I didnt want to at all. Cant even explain why I feel like this. :-( Sun is shining and its a gorgeous day which should be perking me up but it isnt..:-(
I've got some ironing to do, hoover around upstairs and clean the bathroom - these things I will do because I have to.
I just feel like curling up and giving up at the moment. I've got so used to putting on the good happy face for everyone that when I hit a downer it comes as a shock. I just wish I could let this "mask" down for one moment, but its not what people want to see. They dont want to know the sad me, so up comes the "mask".
The weird thing is that today I dont trust myself - that is bad!!!!!
I've got some ironing to do, hoover around upstairs and clean the bathroom - these things I will do because I have to.
I just feel like curling up and giving up at the moment. I've got so used to putting on the good happy face for everyone that when I hit a downer it comes as a shock. I just wish I could let this "mask" down for one moment, but its not what people want to see. They dont want to know the sad me, so up comes the "mask".
The weird thing is that today I dont trust myself - that is bad!!!!!
Monday, October 10, 2005
JCS Ornaments 2004
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah I am severely pissed off - I have spent the best part of two hours turfing my JCS magazines out trying to find the 2004 issue. I have found 2000, 2001, 2002 and 2003 but NO 2004. I have turfed the cupboards out, looked everywhere I could possibly think but still no magazine. Now I know I had it before the carpet was changed, but since then I havent seen it. I have even looked in the boxes upstairs, that has the rest of the living room bits in, but it isnt in there.
Why is it the one magazine I do want is absolutely nowhere to be found...grrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is it the one magazine I do want is absolutely nowhere to be found...grrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stitching HD
I can finally upload my fairy exchange piece, I am hoping that my recipient has received it by now, but I am pretty sure she doesnt read my blog so I am safe anyway :-)
And here she is - all stitched up
And here she is - all stitched up
Stitched on pale pink hand dyed evenweave
Backed with pale pink and silver stars material
Finished October 2005
Backed with pale pink and silver stars material
Finished October 2005
7 Things..
Ok Mel I have finally got round to doing it..lol
7 Things To Do Before I Die
7 Things I Can Do
7 Things I Can’t Do
7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex
7 Things I Say Most Often
7 Celebrity Crushes
7 Things To Do Before I Die
- Be a mother
Make peace with my own mother
Tackle my inner demons
Learn to love myself for me not for what others want me to be
Travel to Alaska and back to America
Get my house exactly how I want it
Learn to say no and mean it.
7 Things I Can Do
- Love unconditionally
Cook and bake
Sew (cross stitch and other sewing too)
Drive a car, and park it too.
Be there for someone
Change a washer in a tap
Give reasonable advice
7 Things I Can’t Do
- Say no
Feel confident
Cook rice
Do whats right for me, not whats right for others
Forgive easily
Let go of a love lost
Be a daughter
7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex
- Eyes
Smile
Compassion
Respect
A sense of humour
Stability
The ability to love whether it be human or animal
7 Things I Say Most Often
- Oh!
Hmmm
Do you want a cup of tea?
I love you
No Ollie, Smudge or Bear (which ever one is doing something they shouldnt be doing!)
Hi
Thanks
7 Celebrity Crushes
- Kevin Sorbo
Chris Ecclestone
George Clooney
David Tennant
Richard Dean Anderson
William Peterson
Hugh Laurie
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Mutterings..
As seen on Deadly's blog here's some mutterings:
Hmmm are these the normal ramblings of a sane person..lol.
- Quirk:: different
- Crystal:: rose quartz
- Pet Peeve:: crumbs on the worksurfaces
- Cuban:: cigars
- Breasts:: chicken
- Whispers:: chinese
- Complicated:: love
- Promise me:: You wont leave me
- Murder:: Death
- Filament:: Blending
- Quaint:: Cute
- Rind:: Bacon
- Disease:: Illness
- Queer:: Odd
- Pork:: Fat
- Soaked:: Wet
- Skeleton:: Bones
- Mold:: Ugh!!
- Finished:: Ended
- Buffalo:: Animal
Hmmm are these the normal ramblings of a sane person..lol.
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Ok couldn't resist this one..
| How You Are In Love |
 You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance. |
Playing
Oooh this is definately me :-)
Ok now this is scary...
Hmmm...
| Your Power Color Is Red-Orange |
 At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?" |
Ok now this is scary...
| Your Mood Ring is Light Blue |
 Unsettled Cool |
Hmmm...
| Your Brain's Pattern |
 Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers. You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going. And you can keep these thoughts going at any time. You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation. |
Thursday, October 06, 2005
A pondering thought..
Why can they not make the fabric conditioner smell on freshly washed clothes a candle..? I am using Asda's Orange and Cedarwood fabric conditioner an its got the most adorable smell when it is on clothes that have just come out of the washing machine. Now if someone could capture that smell I would definately buy it :-)
Why is therapy hard..
Can someone answer me this question? Although it probably didnt help that I went into the session with a very low tolerance. I was already wound up after every bloody idiot was on the road doing idiotic things.
The amount of people that I saw on their mobile phones while driving around corners or doing complicated manaeouvres really grated on my nerves. By the time I went into see Wendy my blood was boiling, so yep that got me off to a good start..:(
We did have a reasonable good session in the point that we had a very long talk about my finances, or lack of it shall I say..we also put a couple of things into perspective too.
I also had to make her a promise that I will not have takeaways because I cant be bothered to cook - I have to actually cook a full dinner, as in from scratch like I used to do. THe only time I can have a takeaway is if D suggests it now.. AAAAAAHGGGGGGGHHHH!!
I've also got to make an effort and make enquiries about the card making group near me, and possibly pop along to observe. Hmmmdifficult one that..
Still thankfully I have a month to do this all in as Wendy is now off backpacking in Naples for a month. Cant wait for her to come back so she can tell me all her stories :)
Good news is that when I mentioned it to D about no takeaways bless him he said that he would pay for a takeaway once a month, as long as I stuck to my promise of cooking proper meals.
I have been stitching as well, which is another good thing. Finished my fairy exchange - will post a picture as soon as I have uploaded it from my camera. Now onto my Halloween exchange for ITP.
And so the lovely life of this depressant continues..lol
The amount of people that I saw on their mobile phones while driving around corners or doing complicated manaeouvres really grated on my nerves. By the time I went into see Wendy my blood was boiling, so yep that got me off to a good start..:(
We did have a reasonable good session in the point that we had a very long talk about my finances, or lack of it shall I say..we also put a couple of things into perspective too.
I also had to make her a promise that I will not have takeaways because I cant be bothered to cook - I have to actually cook a full dinner, as in from scratch like I used to do. THe only time I can have a takeaway is if D suggests it now.. AAAAAAHGGGGGGGHHHH!!
I've also got to make an effort and make enquiries about the card making group near me, and possibly pop along to observe. Hmmmdifficult one that..
Still thankfully I have a month to do this all in as Wendy is now off backpacking in Naples for a month. Cant wait for her to come back so she can tell me all her stories :)
Good news is that when I mentioned it to D about no takeaways bless him he said that he would pay for a takeaway once a month, as long as I stuck to my promise of cooking proper meals.
I have been stitching as well, which is another good thing. Finished my fairy exchange - will post a picture as soon as I have uploaded it from my camera. Now onto my Halloween exchange for ITP.
And so the lovely life of this depressant continues..lol
Meant to put this yesterday but forgot..lol
I was doing a very happy jig around my living room last night :) And no it wasnt cos I had stepped on one of my stitching needles..lol. I had brought a Tickled Pink scratch card from Asda a few hours before and hadnt got round to scratching it., well anyway I did it last night and I couldnt believe it.. I won..
Yeppers I won a beauty treatment from any salon in my area that is a member of BABTAC. Wowser I couldnt believe it, I dont win anything.. So I immediately went searching for a salon near me on the BABTAC website, and I couldnt believe it they actually offer holistic therapy treatments. So now I cant decide between, reflexology, reiki, chakra healing, crystal therapy or Hot Stones..oooh decisions decisions..lol.
Yeppers I won a beauty treatment from any salon in my area that is a member of BABTAC. Wowser I couldnt believe it, I dont win anything.. So I immediately went searching for a salon near me on the BABTAC website, and I couldnt believe it they actually offer holistic therapy treatments. So now I cant decide between, reflexology, reiki, chakra healing, crystal therapy or Hot Stones..oooh decisions decisions..lol.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Cats, mice and sore nips..
Thought for the day - never let your cat lay near your laptop :-)
Ollie is very cuddly at the moment, and he likes nothing better than to sprawl all over me while I am sitting on the sofa. Now this is okay normally, but when I am browsing at the laptop he has this fascination with chase the mouse. I have an optical mouse which means I can use it on the sofa, which is a godsend I can tell you. Anyway Ollie seems to think it is his right to chase this mouse that mummy keeps shooing away!! We have pat the mouse, we have chew the lead then we have the full blown sink teeth into said mouse. His little face when he looks up at me as if to say "its not soft and squidgy like my toy mouse is.." is such a picture.
Then we have the snuggling syndrome..what is it with cats that must headbutt you at every opportunity..lol. And do they have a homing device for sore areas of your body? Cos believe me this cat certainly seems to..lol His favourite is lets sit across mummy and pound her lap, then when we get bored with that position we shift so that we are lengthways up my body. Then his litle paws start to pound, we go through the poundy paw phase. Then when we are satisfied that mummy's skin looks like a teabag, we then start to headbutt. I dont normally mind this as its normally my hand he wants, but not today - oh no he wanted to headbut my chest..aaaaaaaaaaah!! Please no, not there - they are sore. And bless him he found that out, as soon as he headbutted me there I shot off the sofa and Ollie was dumped unceremoniously on the floor with a sharp NO!
Yep Ollie is settling himself in.. Now I dont seem to remember my other cats being this cuddly. Barney wanted a lot of loving the last year of her life, and Smudge is so independant that having a cuddle on your lap is indignanty to her..she has to cuddle on HER terms not yours!! But Ollie is very cuddly..and this is after only 6 days with us. He's even tried to snuggle Bear, but poor Bear wasnt quite sure what to do..lol. Trouble is Bear moved and Ollie flew behind the sofa at this point. :-)
Second thought for the day - Ollie has brought a new love to our lives. :-)
Ollie is very cuddly at the moment, and he likes nothing better than to sprawl all over me while I am sitting on the sofa. Now this is okay normally, but when I am browsing at the laptop he has this fascination with chase the mouse. I have an optical mouse which means I can use it on the sofa, which is a godsend I can tell you. Anyway Ollie seems to think it is his right to chase this mouse that mummy keeps shooing away!! We have pat the mouse, we have chew the lead then we have the full blown sink teeth into said mouse. His little face when he looks up at me as if to say "its not soft and squidgy like my toy mouse is.." is such a picture.
Then we have the snuggling syndrome..what is it with cats that must headbutt you at every opportunity..lol. And do they have a homing device for sore areas of your body? Cos believe me this cat certainly seems to..lol His favourite is lets sit across mummy and pound her lap, then when we get bored with that position we shift so that we are lengthways up my body. Then his litle paws start to pound, we go through the poundy paw phase. Then when we are satisfied that mummy's skin looks like a teabag, we then start to headbutt. I dont normally mind this as its normally my hand he wants, but not today - oh no he wanted to headbut my chest..aaaaaaaaaaah!! Please no, not there - they are sore. And bless him he found that out, as soon as he headbutted me there I shot off the sofa and Ollie was dumped unceremoniously on the floor with a sharp NO!
Yep Ollie is settling himself in.. Now I dont seem to remember my other cats being this cuddly. Barney wanted a lot of loving the last year of her life, and Smudge is so independant that having a cuddle on your lap is indignanty to her..she has to cuddle on HER terms not yours!! But Ollie is very cuddly..and this is after only 6 days with us. He's even tried to snuggle Bear, but poor Bear wasnt quite sure what to do..lol. Trouble is Bear moved and Ollie flew behind the sofa at this point. :-)
Second thought for the day - Ollie has brought a new love to our lives. :-)
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Monday, October 03, 2005
100 Things About Me - updated January 2007
Ok seeing as I keep seeing this I thought I had better do my one..so here goes. But bear with me I might not get to 100 things so will have to keep updating it :-)
- I am an Aquarian
- I am 37
- I dont want to be 40
- I was abused
- I used to live with foster parents
- I have two cats and one dog
- I spent two years in a childrens home
- I am a pagan
- I love crystals
- I love the colour purple and pink
- I drive my husbands ex car
- My old car went to the scrapheap in heaven
- I loved my grandparents
- I never got to see them before they died
- I married when I was 19
- I am still married to him
- I have been unfaithful
- I found my soulmate
- We weren't meant to be together
- I have no children
- I have lost several babies :(
- I would like children one day
- I adore the snow
- I hate the rain
- I dont see my mother
- I dont want to see her
- She doesnt want to see me either
- My mother is now dead, she died of lung cancer
- I love cooking
- Especially baking
- I love the Victorian era
- I was born in the wrong time
- I have many friends
- I would willingly go to the end of the earth for my friends
- I love garibaldi biscuits
- I collect myth and magic ornaments
- I have several favourite pieces
- I am scared of flying insects
- I love the moon
- I am trying to create a moon garden
- I believe in ghosts
- I have seen a ghost
- I am too trusting for my own good
- I never seem to stitch for myself
- Am always stitching for other people
- I suffer with depression
- Which means I cant work
- I now have my dog Jet living with me
- I also have my other cat Amy living with me as well, she came with Jet.
- My total pets are 3 cats and 2 dogs
- I am now unable to have children
- I am going through an early menopause at 38
- I found my best mate again
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Grrr..@ blogrolling
AAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhh what is up with blogrolling? This is the second day that it hasnt told me who has updated their blog..aaaaaaaaah!!!
Short post at the moment, got other things to do..lol.
Short post at the moment, got other things to do..lol.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Here he is..
Here he is, our new addition. Olly :-) He's a beautiful 5 year old black and white cat. He's a big bruiser but so layed back its unbelievable :-) This is his favourite place since bringing him home at midday - behind our t.v. I think he likes the cables..lol.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
New addition very soon..
Woohooo....... we passed. :-)
Now I expect this has you all wondering what the heck I am talking about..lol. But then if you should know me by now and know that I am totally loopy and it wont be something simple..lol. Well I am going to surprise you..it is something simple..:-)
We passed the house visit for CPL to give the go ahead for us to have our new furbaby :-) Although I would have been surprised if we hadnt seeing as we had already been passed a couple of years earlier by the RSPCA for when we got Scruffy, and I already had Smudge as well. Now if it had been my mother doing this home visit I think she would have denied us on principle purely because I have been my usual pigheaded self and havent spoken to her since April of this year. But then to tell you the truth I wouldnt have let her in anyway, and I really do think if she had got me down as one of her home visits she would have passed it on to someone else. Anyway going back to the visit, it went really well. The house was absolutely spotless, seeing as I had done a 2 hour blitz right through the house cleaning and hoovering before the visit. Even Smudge was obliging by being all purrey and cute when we went upstairs to see her. Scruffy was his usual self - ooh a friend lets lick them and show them how sweet I am..
So now tomorrow morning we go and get ourselves a new furbaby :-) I am really excited.. We've decided that we wont get a kitten, and have asked for an older cat - 1year and upwards. I shall see what they have at the sanctuary and which kitty jumps out at me :-)
Await pictures :-)
Now I expect this has you all wondering what the heck I am talking about..lol. But then if you should know me by now and know that I am totally loopy and it wont be something simple..lol. Well I am going to surprise you..it is something simple..:-)
We passed the house visit for CPL to give the go ahead for us to have our new furbaby :-) Although I would have been surprised if we hadnt seeing as we had already been passed a couple of years earlier by the RSPCA for when we got Scruffy, and I already had Smudge as well. Now if it had been my mother doing this home visit I think she would have denied us on principle purely because I have been my usual pigheaded self and havent spoken to her since April of this year. But then to tell you the truth I wouldnt have let her in anyway, and I really do think if she had got me down as one of her home visits she would have passed it on to someone else. Anyway going back to the visit, it went really well. The house was absolutely spotless, seeing as I had done a 2 hour blitz right through the house cleaning and hoovering before the visit. Even Smudge was obliging by being all purrey and cute when we went upstairs to see her. Scruffy was his usual self - ooh a friend lets lick them and show them how sweet I am..
So now tomorrow morning we go and get ourselves a new furbaby :-) I am really excited.. We've decided that we wont get a kitten, and have asked for an older cat - 1year and upwards. I shall see what they have at the sanctuary and which kitty jumps out at me :-)
Await pictures :-)
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